Skipping out scheduled blogging because im very very HURT!!!!

damn its friday and whatever happens the early time is just a thing making feels so much pleased!!!

whoooooooooooooooooo!!!!

after a sudden!!!!

i've seen her walking with a guy!!! SHIT!!! my feelings where CRUSHED and i dont know what to do!!! IM JEALOUS!! yes im jealous!!!! damn me!!!....

im not in the position of the way i must act... but how can i accept the fact that i'm still in LOVE with her!!! yup!!! although months past!!! i still love her!!! i really love her so!!!! gosh!!!!

with out prior thinking i make a last option to get hurt my self again!!! seen the picture???


yup its my own wrist!!! and no questions ask i've cut my self!!! and now im feeling quite good!!!

i spent the rest of the time today drinking coffee at COFFEE HUB near her house... damn i hate my self right now!!!

i think what i've seen that time will be in my mind for a long time!!!!

then!!! suddenly!!! she just message in my mobile.. saying

"ui mxta na? xenxia na now lng nkapagtext dami kz gngawa ni mama e.."

damn how could i answer that question after seeing her with someone!!!

im posting this blog right now with tears.. although its now in the outside i can consider i just cant show my tears having people around me....

damn i hate this...

i really do!!!

kill me please.... im begging someone!!! please... kill me!!!

x_X (panting, gasping for air)

die rekkusu (i hope i can)

WEDNESDAY of anxeity!!!!

damn!!!! its a wasted wednesday, i really hate what happened..... although some things are quite good but to sum up!!! its really not good enough to satisfy me.......

(early again at school) weeeee!!! after great things happen that tuesday.... sort of things are not the same as wednesday... i went to school early just to make some Internet updates at my work station at school... and i had plans what will be happening at the whole day......

(a friend at a Yahoo Messenger) while im doing sort of things online, a friend BUZZ me at my Yahoo Messenger and inviting to have a drink (alcoholic drink) around 4pm upon this... i agreed of course i should and my plans are gratefully organized... damn i gonna like the result of my wednesday... (but its not as expected).....

(plan of going to carla's place) the actual plan i made first after lunch, i'll visit carla's mom at their house.. and i had decided to brought a chocolate cake as a gift (i actually bring something when i always visit at their place)... while making sort of things and having a great day... i message a friend using my mobile phone to ask what time will he out of school, so that we will have a little talk and have a walk around the malls here... upon messaging he replied "we are now going out of school... we are on half day!!!! no classes in the afternoon" damn!!! upon receiving that message all of sudden my plans going at carla's place to have a talk or chat with her mom is canceled.... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!!!! it is not ok to me obviously... it ruined almost my day!!! damn!!!! damn!!! f*ck!!!! it destroys my mood.... so my plans going to her is canceled i decided to go to the mall and have my time playing TEKKEN TAG until 4pm.....

(a walk with a friend) while thinking of all just happen a friend of mine visit me here at my work station and actual routine, we had a conversation some laughs, some technical aspects and even the WIFI zone the i used to connect when i got near to the BASKETBALL COURT of our school.... (i have the WEP key there) hehehe.... after some conversation my friend told me that he had no classes at all and he planned to go to the mall... (wow just like me what a coincidence) so we decided to go out right away... (actually i borrowed a 150 pesos to him) hehehe some sort of so i'll not gonna be short if i'll have a drink around 4pm..... upon both agreed... we walk from the school going to the mall wooooohhh!! its a long walk and its around 12 in the afternoon wahahaha the sun is shining but the clouds are blocking its ray to us... weeeee its not that really hot.... just good enough to have a walk!!!! and in an instant we arrived at the city proper of the town... wahehehe!!!! ohhhh btw... upon walking i make a peak at carla's place to check wether there are people at their house but nothings outside... only the motorbike of her dad was there...

(TEKKEN TAG TIME) after arriving at the mall, my friend and i went to the location of the game machine of tekken tag that is always the first thing i do when i got in that mall except for singing in the videoke with my friends i always play tekken tag there... back to the topic... i was surprise when i got there... my common friend that always play tekken and some of my mentors of tekken were there wow this a chance having a battle with them to gain more expirience in them.... luckily, i had a game with a friend which has the unnatural talent in that game in short he is sort of a pro in that game... the score is 1-3... heheh i've lost 3 time but i win atleast 1 not bad enough for having a battle with him... not like years ago... i've always lost to them... wahehehe... my chars in the TEKKEN are.. ANNA (i really love this character i dont know why but im good enough using this character) Julia (weeee this girl can make a extreme damage in cheap shots when im using her...) GANRYU (wahahah they always said that this character is heavy meaning slow but when im using him.. he still fast for me and they always say why it looks like hes fast for a big guy in that game) upon playing some expectator plays and actually they lost... more practice dudes!!!! oh btw i've skipped playing tekken years ago and back since the summer... wahahaha luckily ANNA and JULIA is my main character.....

(WIFI ZONE) after playing in the mall a friend of mine came to the mall.. (some sort of he will get the AKOMISMO dog tag the he ask me to get from the retailer near the mall) upon his arrival... i gave him what he ask for and pay me 80 pesos for that wahehehe (the price of the dog tag is 40 each and he ask me to get two of them) upon paying me we decide to go to their house to waste my time there while waiting for the confirmation message of the drink that will happen around 4pm.... actually that time is almost 4pm... so while walking i decide to bring out my laptop and check the wifi hot spot near that mall... luckily i got a signal and tries to connect hehehehe.... so we went to jollibee and try to open some internet site but ew failed the wifi signal was lost.... so we decided to go out and walk near the City Hall... while were walking we look for a place where we can open my laptop again and connect to the WIFI signal so that we can do some internet surfing for free.... luckily we see a spot... and decided to sit over there while people are walking in front of us... wahahahaha i think they're actually thinking why we bring out the laptop and thinking what are we doing.. wahehhe..

there it was, we check both of our accounts in friendster and i introduced to him my blog here at blogspot.com... wahehehe after seeing my blog he said to me that this thing is NOSE BLEED (some sort of expression of some filipino's who see some people saying word in english wahehehe) actually this a internation portion of the web having a blog that can read all over the world, if you dont use a understandable language who do you think will read your blog... waheheheh..............

after the friendster thing we decide to watch video in YOUTUBE yeah having the access of wifi in that place and only the two of us the bandwidth of the connection is so high having a full signal connection the downloading of the video in youtube is easy... yeahhh we've watch a lot of videos...

after several time wasted while watching damn i've waited for some text message but no one is messaging me until my damn mobile phone receiving messages whooa 10 messages in an instant my friend which is with me that time i've just got his message and saying im going to the mall.. and my friend message that invites me to have a drink just arrive around 5pm waaaaaaaaahhh!!! damn network of SMART!!! wahhhh.. it really not a good day to me.... so i decided to cancel all of my plans for the day and instead spare my time at my friends house....

(7pm i was home) after the wasted time i spent at my friends house i decided to go home... yup i decided just because the battery of my laptop is just to low wahahah!!! after i arrive at my place.... i have seen the god daughter of my mother sitting near their place... so i talk to her knowing that early in that morning her mother told me that her classmate bring a letter to me from my X-girlfriend, so i decided to get the letter even though is not quite unusual to me to received letters from ladies (im not a good looking person.... im a chubby one).... after getting the letter i decided to enter the house premises.... after i got my things off.... i'm just tired that day the whole day... having all things i planned ruined.... i just sit back... and feel the rest of time for relaxation... wahahaha!!! i've remember it's my dad birthday so some simple dish were there... but im really tired that day and i decided to take the night to rest....

(1opm the dinner) having the day sort of not as i expected... damn i became hungry around 10pm, i've just remember after having a breakfast around 8am, i've never eat since then... ow!! i eat a snack at my friends house wahahaha a VOICE combo sandwich and a chippy (RED) and a mountain dew... waheheh.. but around that time my stomach aches and i have to eat something, luckily there is a barbeque dish weeee.. and then i eat a piece and a half... wahahah!!! should i call this a dinner or a mid-night snack!! wahaha.... while eating i've just remember hey its WWE RAW at jacktv, so ive tuned it to that station... weeee luckily its not finished i think its on the way half of the show... heheh... while watching i see SHAQIEL ONIEL at the ring wow shaq is on raw... waheheh having a talk with chris jerico and suddenly the bigshow came... wahehehe

after watching tv i've decided to got my thins prepare so i go to bed.... i got into bed around 11... having all the routines and preparations... and make some SMS messages... around 12am of thurdays i decide to take a sleep... suddenly my dad arrives and i open the door... and get back to sleep.....

not a quite day right rekkusu!!!
sleepwell rekkusu!!!
smile always!!!

THANKS for reading!!!

sayonara!!!!!

TUESDAY of happiness!!!

weew!!!! its was tuesday!!! what can i say its the day were i go to school and my class is from 5 to 7pm only wahahaha!!!! and i love that subject it was PHP and the teacher in that subject is my master and my friend....

(the long break) i went to school at 10am, early right!! yah i had to go there just to make some things and to be at my workstation in a computer shop that been operated by our school. it is an IGP, i've 5 years here what can i say, i dont even received any allowance since 3 years wahahah!!! its ok i just spent my time here serving to those student which commonly make rentals at the desktop computer that this IGP had... ow btw this were my computer thingy starts, although me and my self is really want to learn from this... hehehe all my vacant time were spent here... i love what im doing here......

(all of a sudden) i had to go to class at 5pm weee im sure i'll not be late.. hehehe.... one of my classmate told me that there will be no classes.. damn im quite disappointed but in the other side i really dont believed it because that teacher my master is that kind of teacher who not commonly skipping classes even he had a sore throat he still teaching us...

one of my friend sent me an SMS that telling me that my teacher will arriving at school... i was confuse then if there will be class in him or not!!! damn my plans going to the mall was broken wahaha...

around 5pm something my teacher arrives and i talk to him and then suddenly after knowing whats going on... whew!!!! deep breaths and silence is only thing i can do... i was uncomfortable of the fact he is saying, and the things that will gonna happen... but then he still saying about the SMS message of having no class at his subject... the final talk to this matter will be held on thursday 10am in the laboratory time of our subject...

(caught in act) wahahah funny after looking for some of our remaining classmate inside the school... were almost less than 20 i think out of 50+ students in our section... after we found them some talks.. we decide to leave the school... while leaving my dad caught me going out of school... wahaha wrong timing my idea of going again to the mall was canceled and i had to go home with him.. huhuhu...

(happy birthday dad) after arriving home.... my family decide to go out for a dinner, suddenly i remembered that it was my father bday tomorrow july 29, 2009 (HAPPY 53 BIRTHDAY DAD "i think") we went to the restaurant that we commonly go when we're eating dinner or celebrating events regarding with family matters. its been month since the last time i go to this place... heheh i found something new in that place the waitress and ladies in the grill were new employees (i think) weeee i have to eat my favorite dish here... wahaha!!!! after ordering the meals we gonna eat (Shashimi"my favorite", beef tapa, pancit, pork sisig "my brother favorite", kalderetang ewan "i dont know if it is beef or pork", pop corn, banana chips, oriental chicken, garlic fried rice, oriental rice, plain rice and some alcoholic beverages) weeeeeeeeee.... im full so much... waheheh.. luckily i still love that shashimi wahehe and i ate using chopsticks only.. wahahah!!! thanks for the treat dad HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!







(at home and awake till 12am wednesday) having a good dinner... its resting time.... i used to sleep at the function room of our house having all the entertainment system i love the place while i am resting... i borrowed my brother phone to login my UZZAP account since months since my last login... and of course i look for my favorite chatroom the F150...

after my login i just chat with some of the people there... and yet some of those id selling their nude picture video etc.. damn i hate those guys their flooding the chat room... luckily i had a chat with a id |Yeza~NUi*07 she is 21 located at pampanga, angeles pampanga to be exact... and then a long chat held.. funny things he called me ENGOT and STUPID because of my personality being a SUICIDAL (yes i am a suicidal, i used to make cuts and slahes in my left arm and wrist) i cant blame myself being this, its been a months since i've learned this and just because of a girl i truly love the most...

back to the topic... having a chat with her makes a lot of time spent and i really enjoy chatting with her... nyahaha!!! after some of the chatter leaving the room were still chatting and making things more interesting until we talk something about my keloids yup im expiriencing keliod problems right now after making the IM SORRY cut using a razor blade... waheheheh... what can i say im just weak... anyways... the time ticks to 12mn whoaaaa!!! i decided to end the conversation and get some sleep... ow btw i get his mobile number wahaha.. COOL!!!!

sleeptight rekkusu!!!
dreambig rekkusu!!!

IM HAPPY OF WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY!!! HOPE WEDNESDAY IS A BANG!!!!

sayonara.....

thanks for reading....

Monday of Everything I Deserve!!!!

weew!!!! It was monday, the start of school activities for the week and yet since the weekends, same things as always, i'm still in the life of being drunk again!!! almost 5 weeks ago since i became like this, funny thing she don't even bother... well what can i say i knew she did'nt even care at all!!! hahahah!!!

weew!!!! anyways its quite familiar to the activities in monday having a class only and 3 to 4 in the afternoon and 5 to 7 in the evening, wow what a great schedule. if only im not required to wake up evryday at the time of 7 in the morning... i had to look for my niece and take good care of him since my mom will go to school at 8...

anyways im just sharing you some part of my freaking life... hahaha!!!!

lets go back to my school activities, damn i really hate the result of the upcoming convention that i and my classmates will be attending... its making me unsatisfied perhaps it was just my opinion... damn i hate it.... it was being agreed that it will be a 2 day seminar at UP Diliman!!!, but then again... an election was held.... wooooooooooh!!! it was a close election having a result of 37 for a day of seminar and 34 for a two day seminar.... what do you expect happen... the majority wins!!! hahaha sadly i really hate the result!!!! i can't blame them.... and i am not actually doing that!!!

getting home its been quite hard for me, even though the school is just a walking distance to my place... but its raining and the hardest part of it.... i always bring my laptop since i bought it (actually my mother and my brother cash out just to buy this laptop thanks to them!!!)... damn even though the rain is not that strong im just worry about the laptop that i need to cover it up with my POLO and my HANCKERCHIEF... huhuhuhu im freaking walking under the falling rain!!!

having got home... i've just check out what happened to my things in that laptop bag!!! hahaha..... weeeeeeee my things are not wet at all but my laptop is cold... i wonder why???.... well im happy its still working (actually im using it right now).... yeah!!!!

ow... by the way!!! hahaha i've just remember damn!!! i really love watching the latenight show in JACK TV... damn that HANDPICKED it was the "WWE:NIGHT OF THE CHAMPIONS" and i really love what happened in that show except for the WWE Champion is still in RANDY ORTON's hand... POOR John Cena and Tripple H.... hahaha!!! ow BTW the ENIGMA Jeff Hardy gets the WWE Heavy Weight champion from CM Punk, poor Punk he tries to run way.. but Hardy followed him and take back to the ring!!! and use his finishing move..!!! weee what a great show!!!! actually it was almost 1am of tuesday the show ends!!! damn its late (although its morning)... hahaha....

weeee.. this is just some things i remember since yesterday and im trying to recall it!! hehehe...

THANKS for reading this blog!!!

SAYONARA!!!!