wheeeeeeew!!! blogging time.... sorry for not updating my blog, i've been busy in things that would make feel so delighted... heheheheh.... anyways time passes by and im happy of what i am right now... wheeew!!!... for the long time i've been in my other side i realized now im a new person... hahahah
after all i noticed that its august and still my thesis proposal is still not quite approved and i even looked for more company that will be our topic for the system that we are proposing... damn me... i didn't even manage my time in this.... hahahah... its examination week and i have to take more things seriously.... what a week.... and then i have still to find the better company that will suite my system proposal for my thesis.... huhuhuhu..... i have only 7 weeks left to gain a atleast 50% of my system... huhuhu!!! i hope everything will be fine even if things get more complicated...
signing off....
THANKS for reading!!!
rekkusu!!!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Happy I Realize.....
having thoughts of whats going on my life... and being locked and confused... and the fear of letting her go... i am now ready.... its a choice that i made.... i made this so that the both of us will be ok... its hard on my side.... but still i can do this... i maybe still in love with her but i have to move on...
rekkusu let her go.!!!!
yes it was been 6 weeks and now im ready... i dunno what changed my mind... its not all the message she said to me... but my other side telling me that its ok she not your lost anymore... maybe i've been the person that i was not used to be....
wheeeeewwww..!!! alcohol and cuts help me realize this... in fact i have to visit a clinic in the city to check out my keloids and cuts... the doctor was suprise... and she said something that makes smile the whole day round.... wahehehe although i have to skip class so i can go to that clinic...
many positive things got into me... making the feeling of being set free from where i locked my self... as always its been brutal to me that i have to cut my self and drink lots and lots of alcohol...
hahaha... (although i like it more and more) wheeeeeewwwww!!!!
things fastly change... im now ready... i will let her go... i'll just say SORRY.... perhaps this maybe awkward but still the feeling of making things more positively right will be just fine...
sorry i've been like an idiot to punish my self and take all this pain by my self, although my friends keeps helping me realize that it is not right anymore.... lucky i have them everytime....
if you can read this message i hope you understand....... here's a message for you CARLA!!!
rekkusu let her go.!!!!
yes it was been 6 weeks and now im ready... i dunno what changed my mind... its not all the message she said to me... but my other side telling me that its ok she not your lost anymore... maybe i've been the person that i was not used to be....
wheeeeewwww..!!! alcohol and cuts help me realize this... in fact i have to visit a clinic in the city to check out my keloids and cuts... the doctor was suprise... and she said something that makes smile the whole day round.... wahehehe although i have to skip class so i can go to that clinic...
many positive things got into me... making the feeling of being set free from where i locked my self... as always its been brutal to me that i have to cut my self and drink lots and lots of alcohol...
hahaha... (although i like it more and more) wheeeeeewwwww!!!!
things fastly change... im now ready... i will let her go... i'll just say SORRY.... perhaps this maybe awkward but still the feeling of making things more positively right will be just fine...
sorry i've been like an idiot to punish my self and take all this pain by my self, although my friends keeps helping me realize that it is not right anymore.... lucky i have them everytime....
if you can read this message i hope you understand....... here's a message for you CARLA!!!
***********
im sorry that at this time im still in loved with you.....
im sorry i cant accept the fact that i will loose you....
but still i have to do, even i dont like it....
maybe time will tell.... if you and i will cross roads again....
and still i have my feelings for you... would mine if i made a mistake again for loving you????
or maybe you will not accept it anymore.... because of knowing how desperate i was to have you... just let now.... and i will just accept your decision... i will understand.... thanks for letting me love you... i wish you find your man.... and ill try to find my woman..... thanks for everything... and your mom.... take good care of her... she's been there for me everytime i felt alone.. she spared her time just to make me peel comfortable... im very to lucky to meet her... and im very thankful knowing her.... thanks for the time and moments you shared with me.... wishing you all the happiness in your life.... take good care of your self.... i still love you.....
thanks......
BTW IM SORRY..... GOMENASAI KAARA!!!! GOMENASAI
***********
am i stupid or what... what can i say i just want to let her know... now im happy knowing what to do... i'll just let time decide what will happen next...
rekkusu you find youre self again....
im happy for you....
THANKS for reading ^_^
rekkusu
Sunday, August 2, 2009
The FINAL Set......
its been weeks since i became feeling dipressed at all and i have'nt notice that im wasted my time trying to move on and yet i can't... its been the 6 week of hurting my self last august 1... and i just to make my self more and more worst than ever... until.... i try to contact her the morning of august 2 around 1am... she ask me who am i... a bit hurt but i have to ask her about something that the final conclusion of my terrible process of moving on... having the long conversation that took hours via sms messaging... i made this conclusion...
she's just pushing me away from her... and having this noticed i even cut my self again... what can i do i just can accept that fact... she always asking that time what do i want her to do... does she even think of it??? shes the one i only adores... and i can accept the fact that she will be gone... i have to move on but still i was in his world locked down there... she always saying that i dont deserve her making things more complicated... why it should be like that... it is more better if she says that she dont even like me from the first place... for a guy who really gave up everything for the girl lady or women she loved the most... taking risk and even making sacrifices would be enough just to be with her... i've actually done it several times even though she did'nt noticed it... and one thing more... i cant moved on... why?? its just i've been built a good relatoinship with her mom that which always give me my strength.. i wish before she leaves and left the country.. we will have a good conversation that can even make this relationship of friendship more often... even though its hurting me more and more because i really do love her daughter and yet... damn i cant do anything right just to think of the things i should do just to make my self feel ok.... damn i hate whats really happening and im not happy of this concluson....
looking forward i want to make up more things that could pleased me and even make me more human... after the deepest cut i made that i call the tears of blood... yup im screaming that time deep inside and saying that i lover her so.... i need her... i miss her... i cried even it not really the right thing to do... i just keep my self in pain... i almost felt asleep but still i cant sleep... damn i hate everything happen but i think its the right choice...
back to the conversation... she even said that she know how that i was hurt... and she even said that its not easy to her knowing that there is someone like me who ruin his life just because of loving her... maybe i just carry this thing until i move on.. i need some right now... just to be heard... i need some to talk to... but i cant open this kind of thing in my family... i just need a friend that would listen to my nonsense arguments... (sigh) i want her... but i cant have her.... im desperate but still i cant get her... am i pathetic?? maybe...
i wish by the time im prepared that i can moved on... i can forget about her... i wish that i can make things more easy... and even make me more stronger... damn me... because of her i just been like this... i know really know theres nothing more i can do... help me.... i cant even take this anymore... i still love her even loving her is hurting me more and more... what can i say i just loved someone who i assumed can love me too because she showed that thing... damn me... damn!!!!
i think time will pass... and i can find a new one... i think.... but how can i found the new one.. if my mind and heart screaming out only her name.... since i felt this i knew i thought this lead to a happy ending... it was just my thought...
i hope i can move on...
rekkusu its just a one of the big trials in your life...
rekkusu face your fears....
rekkusu everything will be fine...
THANKS for reading....
rekkusu...
rekkusu brace your self... its now or never... its a choice of letting go... and you can do it... i trust you... i've seen you smiling even knowing that you're just faking it... rekkusu your not a kid... maybe you're childish... but you can do this... its now or never... maybe new cuts will be made but still you have to move on......
she's just pushing me away from her... and having this noticed i even cut my self again... what can i do i just can accept that fact... she always asking that time what do i want her to do... does she even think of it??? shes the one i only adores... and i can accept the fact that she will be gone... i have to move on but still i was in his world locked down there... she always saying that i dont deserve her making things more complicated... why it should be like that... it is more better if she says that she dont even like me from the first place... for a guy who really gave up everything for the girl lady or women she loved the most... taking risk and even making sacrifices would be enough just to be with her... i've actually done it several times even though she did'nt noticed it... and one thing more... i cant moved on... why?? its just i've been built a good relatoinship with her mom that which always give me my strength.. i wish before she leaves and left the country.. we will have a good conversation that can even make this relationship of friendship more often... even though its hurting me more and more because i really do love her daughter and yet... damn i cant do anything right just to think of the things i should do just to make my self feel ok.... damn i hate whats really happening and im not happy of this concluson....
looking forward i want to make up more things that could pleased me and even make me more human... after the deepest cut i made that i call the tears of blood... yup im screaming that time deep inside and saying that i lover her so.... i need her... i miss her... i cried even it not really the right thing to do... i just keep my self in pain... i almost felt asleep but still i cant sleep... damn i hate everything happen but i think its the right choice...
back to the conversation... she even said that she know how that i was hurt... and she even said that its not easy to her knowing that there is someone like me who ruin his life just because of loving her... maybe i just carry this thing until i move on.. i need some right now... just to be heard... i need some to talk to... but i cant open this kind of thing in my family... i just need a friend that would listen to my nonsense arguments... (sigh) i want her... but i cant have her.... im desperate but still i cant get her... am i pathetic?? maybe...
i wish by the time im prepared that i can moved on... i can forget about her... i wish that i can make things more easy... and even make me more stronger... damn me... because of her i just been like this... i know really know theres nothing more i can do... help me.... i cant even take this anymore... i still love her even loving her is hurting me more and more... what can i say i just loved someone who i assumed can love me too because she showed that thing... damn me... damn!!!!
i think time will pass... and i can find a new one... i think.... but how can i found the new one.. if my mind and heart screaming out only her name.... since i felt this i knew i thought this lead to a happy ending... it was just my thought...
i hope i can move on...
rekkusu its just a one of the big trials in your life...
rekkusu face your fears....
rekkusu everything will be fine...
THANKS for reading....
rekkusu...
rekkusu brace your self... its now or never... its a choice of letting go... and you can do it... i trust you... i've seen you smiling even knowing that you're just faking it... rekkusu your not a kid... maybe you're childish... but you can do this... its now or never... maybe new cuts will be made but still you have to move on......
FRIDAY when good things turns bad!!!!!
(lucky SMS) i set the alarm of my phone around 5am last night..... but suddenly im awake around 458 in the morning damn 2 minutes early that the alarm... wahahha... i shuts the alarm and take more rest... i feel still sleepy... till the clock ticks 6am im again awake... but the feeling of being sleepy is still in me so i decided to sleep again until it was 7am... damn i open my eyes and i see it was 7 i'll gonna be late for the early morning class... as a morning habit i always check my phone for the sms messages i've receive by the time i was sleeping... my class mate message me that our class will start 830am... whoaw.. i'm on the rush but after reading the message... whew its ok... i nid to relax now..... until it was 8 and i prepare to do things before going school....
(console programming) after the walk going to the school.. i directly go the classroom where our class held... the first batch of the class where too busy doing the activity given by our teacher.. hehehe... luckily im on second batch and i was'nt late... wahehehe... and after the time ticks till its our turn to start the activity.. i always used my laptop in any of my subject so that some of my classmates can used the laboratory premises to concentrate and learn to make programming...
it was a time consuming activty... actually im done except for the last number... wahahahaha some of my classmates asking me what to do.. so i taught them with all the knowledge i can share... wahehe... yes time is over and i get a score 20/25 not bad...
(thesis approve but not really) after my class my groupmates for the thesis ask me where i am and where gonna go to the company we choose to make a thesis... after we meet up, we decided to go to the company and gave the letter of intent to them so that they can tell to us if it is approve or not... upon giving the letter (ow btw a lady receieves the letter telling us that the branch manager is quite busy and he's not in the company premises) one of my groupmate invite us to have a lunch at the nearest fastfood chain which is JOLLIBEE..... so we decided to walk and go there....
(wifi addict & review) after arriving at jollibee... we get the niciest table... and order some of the establishment offers.. waheheheh as luch i choice K1 (1 pc burger steak) and the my mates choose C1 (1 pc chicken joy).... after eating we clean the table and start to open our laptop... (actually me and 1 of my mates had a laptop) then i start reading the slide presentation i copied on my mate... cause we will have a exam at 1pm... it was 1130 in the morning that we start reading the slide presentation that our teacher used to discuss the lecture last week...
i always look at wifi spots near any stablishment that where i was... sadly being a person who owns a laptop there's no any wifi signal in that stablishment... damn i hate it.. i was not able to post a blog at my blog... and even check my friendster account... huhuhu... i need a internet connection... huhuhu!!!!
(seminar) after eating at jollibee.... we decided to go to school by just walking it... and then we arrive early... hehehe... and waiting to our teacher, so that we could start the class which is like a seminar because of the long discussion, can you imagine a lecture class that has a 4-5 hours time... whoaw it boring right?.. after entering the room our teacher instructs us to get a 1/4 piece of paper and number it from 1 to 10... WTF its just only 10 items and the lecture is in two topics... wahahhaa what an exam.... luckily i got a score 9/10... wahahha very very lucky guy.... after that the seminar starts... heheheheh after a long discussion and my sit mate is challenging me a race in a game which network via wifi, so i agree with him... because the lecture is too boring... while were conducting a race in NFS Mostwanted... we always check our teacher so that we will not be caught playing while he's teaching.... hehehehe taking risk even we know its wrong thing to do... and then suddenly the lecture stops.. and it was finished... yes it only 3pm and we have time to play more... wahahhaha!!! so we decided to play until 4pm.... i always lost at my classmate wahehhe its ok im enjoying it.. whew.. what a race...
(when good things turns bad) having a great friday... im really happy... although i really miss someone... yup you know who... its carla... anyways having my friends timothy around the mall (we've decided to go the mall because its friday and my friend is waiting for his girlfried) i play the arcade game which i always play wahehhe TEKKEN addict... but suddenly everythings turns out not right... its 6pm, unexpected scenery... while standing and talking to a friend at the mall... i've seen her... im on panic seeing her... and suddenly she pass in front of me... but i noticed something.. she made a pause.. in front me i think she is thinking will she go back or proceed walking.... damn it's ok to me if only she's alone or with her girl friends... but i notice a guy.. yup a guy following her wearing their school uniform... damn my feeling got crushed... and im jealous of what i see... having the disturb feeling... i decided to play the game and yet i lost... damn im not feeling great... i told my friend im leaving... while walking around the mall to go out... i suddenly open my phone and get RUBY (the razor that i kept for 5 weeks that i always use when i make cuts/slashes) damn me with no more thinking... i cut my self.. deep cuts... making lots of blood pouring in my wrist.... i looked for her... to show what i've done to my self... but i cant find her... i decided to go out of the mall have a walk until i see my self in front of the coffee hub....
here's the deep cut although its on my previous blog i just want to post it again!!!!
(depress, coffee, wifi, and chatters) i decided to go enter the coffee hub.. although im not into drinking coffee... i just got one because im not feeling great and the establishment has a wifi connection, so i can post a blog regarding matters that i was hurt again.... after opening my laptop my brother message me and telling me that i got a new cut and he's worried about the keloids that will be the output of the cuts.. i just told him that i know what i was doing, and please just understand me... some of my friends message me... and try to comfort me... and even watch my mood via webcam... even my brothers girlfriend is concern at me... i know im not like this before but i suddenly changed just because i cant accept the fact the we're through damn me.... i love her so much im taking such risk just to have her again... even the payment for this is my own life...
having the time spent in chatting and dinking coffee, i've received an sms message from her using her moms number... and saying how am i???... damn my reaction to the question.. got into my nerves.. i just told her im not ok.... im really not... does she knows that she is the reason why im not ok??? how can she dont even noticed that... i cant believed it... damn.. im really hurt... im dipress.. i nid some to talk to... i cant cry... i cant....... im just taking advantage of the time coffee and even the chatters that chats with me so that i can still be ok... damn i really hate what happened.... huhuhuhuhuhuhu!!!!
(skipping up the rest of the story...... i dont wanna to talk more..... i cant tell it anymore....)
friday i felt like i was crusified...
im all alone...
i cry deep inside...
i love her so...
i wish i could be somebody else....
THANKS for reading!!!
rekkusu
(console programming) after the walk going to the school.. i directly go the classroom where our class held... the first batch of the class where too busy doing the activity given by our teacher.. hehehe... luckily im on second batch and i was'nt late... wahehehe... and after the time ticks till its our turn to start the activity.. i always used my laptop in any of my subject so that some of my classmates can used the laboratory premises to concentrate and learn to make programming...
it was a time consuming activty... actually im done except for the last number... wahahahaha some of my classmates asking me what to do.. so i taught them with all the knowledge i can share... wahehe... yes time is over and i get a score 20/25 not bad...
(thesis approve but not really) after my class my groupmates for the thesis ask me where i am and where gonna go to the company we choose to make a thesis... after we meet up, we decided to go to the company and gave the letter of intent to them so that they can tell to us if it is approve or not... upon giving the letter (ow btw a lady receieves the letter telling us that the branch manager is quite busy and he's not in the company premises) one of my groupmate invite us to have a lunch at the nearest fastfood chain which is JOLLIBEE..... so we decided to walk and go there....
(wifi addict & review) after arriving at jollibee... we get the niciest table... and order some of the establishment offers.. waheheheh as luch i choice K1 (1 pc burger steak) and the my mates choose C1 (1 pc chicken joy).... after eating we clean the table and start to open our laptop... (actually me and 1 of my mates had a laptop) then i start reading the slide presentation i copied on my mate... cause we will have a exam at 1pm... it was 1130 in the morning that we start reading the slide presentation that our teacher used to discuss the lecture last week...
i always look at wifi spots near any stablishment that where i was... sadly being a person who owns a laptop there's no any wifi signal in that stablishment... damn i hate it.. i was not able to post a blog at my blog... and even check my friendster account... huhuhu... i need a internet connection... huhuhu!!!!
(seminar) after eating at jollibee.... we decided to go to school by just walking it... and then we arrive early... hehehe... and waiting to our teacher, so that we could start the class which is like a seminar because of the long discussion, can you imagine a lecture class that has a 4-5 hours time... whoaw it boring right?.. after entering the room our teacher instructs us to get a 1/4 piece of paper and number it from 1 to 10... WTF its just only 10 items and the lecture is in two topics... wahahhaa what an exam.... luckily i got a score 9/10... wahahha very very lucky guy.... after that the seminar starts... heheheheh after a long discussion and my sit mate is challenging me a race in a game which network via wifi, so i agree with him... because the lecture is too boring... while were conducting a race in NFS Mostwanted... we always check our teacher so that we will not be caught playing while he's teaching.... hehehehe taking risk even we know its wrong thing to do... and then suddenly the lecture stops.. and it was finished... yes it only 3pm and we have time to play more... wahahhaha!!! so we decided to play until 4pm.... i always lost at my classmate wahehhe its ok im enjoying it.. whew.. what a race...
(when good things turns bad) having a great friday... im really happy... although i really miss someone... yup you know who... its carla... anyways having my friends timothy around the mall (we've decided to go the mall because its friday and my friend is waiting for his girlfried) i play the arcade game which i always play wahehhe TEKKEN addict... but suddenly everythings turns out not right... its 6pm, unexpected scenery... while standing and talking to a friend at the mall... i've seen her... im on panic seeing her... and suddenly she pass in front of me... but i noticed something.. she made a pause.. in front me i think she is thinking will she go back or proceed walking.... damn it's ok to me if only she's alone or with her girl friends... but i notice a guy.. yup a guy following her wearing their school uniform... damn my feeling got crushed... and im jealous of what i see... having the disturb feeling... i decided to play the game and yet i lost... damn im not feeling great... i told my friend im leaving... while walking around the mall to go out... i suddenly open my phone and get RUBY (the razor that i kept for 5 weeks that i always use when i make cuts/slashes) damn me with no more thinking... i cut my self.. deep cuts... making lots of blood pouring in my wrist.... i looked for her... to show what i've done to my self... but i cant find her... i decided to go out of the mall have a walk until i see my self in front of the coffee hub....
here's the deep cut although its on my previous blog i just want to post it again!!!!
(depress, coffee, wifi, and chatters) i decided to go enter the coffee hub.. although im not into drinking coffee... i just got one because im not feeling great and the establishment has a wifi connection, so i can post a blog regarding matters that i was hurt again.... after opening my laptop my brother message me and telling me that i got a new cut and he's worried about the keloids that will be the output of the cuts.. i just told him that i know what i was doing, and please just understand me... some of my friends message me... and try to comfort me... and even watch my mood via webcam... even my brothers girlfriend is concern at me... i know im not like this before but i suddenly changed just because i cant accept the fact the we're through damn me.... i love her so much im taking such risk just to have her again... even the payment for this is my own life...
having the time spent in chatting and dinking coffee, i've received an sms message from her using her moms number... and saying how am i???... damn my reaction to the question.. got into my nerves.. i just told her im not ok.... im really not... does she knows that she is the reason why im not ok??? how can she dont even noticed that... i cant believed it... damn.. im really hurt... im dipress.. i nid some to talk to... i cant cry... i cant....... im just taking advantage of the time coffee and even the chatters that chats with me so that i can still be ok... damn i really hate what happened.... huhuhuhuhuhuhu!!!!
(skipping up the rest of the story...... i dont wanna to talk more..... i cant tell it anymore....)
friday i felt like i was crusified...
im all alone...
i cry deep inside...
i love her so...
i wish i could be somebody else....
THANKS for reading!!!
rekkusu
THURSDAY a pleasing day!!!
weeeew!!! it was thursday, the day with a long time spent school.... many things the will be happen, hope it will be great!!! lets start now!!!
(morning delight) i woke up around 8am.... of course i have first go to the nearest comfort room to pee.. heheheh... it was my morning routine.... after upon peeing i decided to have a rest and watch my niece plays while he is watching tv.. hehehe he is so cute and cudly.... while watching sometimes i do things that will irritate him... heheheh i always do that.... so that our house will be noisy with all the screaming of that child..... wahahaha... (although his parents will be mad at him)...
after that i decided to take a bath cause i would like to go to school early, so i can make my work station routine.... wahehehe..... and then after my preparation going to school i made it early around 845am wahaha to quite early for a class at 10am..... weeeeee.....
(work station) after a long walk (not really a long walk) i've connected this laptop to the network cable so i can do things that considerably schedule....(routine again).... after my laptop boots... a friend of mine which actually invited me yesterday (wednesday) to have a drink PMed me on my YM... and he is asking me i was'nt avle to go the place where we will have a drink..... a long conversation happened.... actually its not my fault.... :(...
having ready before i go to class i noticed that some of the desktop computers at the work station are not functioning, i decide to make a quick maintenance so that my job at the work station will functioned.... whew... damn its almost 10am.. im gonna be late.... so i decide to leave the machines and then proceed to class.....
(a MASTER) whew i'm in a hurry.... to not got late at the first subject.... after noticing that my class are not in the area of our room..... (outside the room).... WAAAAA i am late... heheh.. i just take a peek so i can see who's inside the room and then i entered.....
after seeing my instructor telling something and explaining it... i took a chair and listen although im not interested of what he say i focus.... wahahha what can i do.. i have to listen... hehehehe... our instructor explains the new grading system he is proposing so that the majority of our class will getting a passed grade in him... waheheh.. he is too kind yet the requirements for the subject is really hard... wahahha!!!! after his explanation and etc is finished he gave us a problem that we will had as an activity... and while im doing this.. damn i forgot the scripting language i'll be using to this.. it almost a year since that programming language.. wahehhe.. i have to as a classmate so i can follow at the activity... wahahha... and then POOF hehe im done with the activity.... oh btw or instructor said that after who is done with the activity can go out and take the rest of time a break.... wheeeew.. so lucky....
(lunch at the neighbor) after waiting for my classmate to finish the activity that our instructor gave.... whew it was lunch and we have to walk to go the eatery where they always eat their lunch... it was at ate vangie's canteen our neighbor... heheheh... i decided to eat my lunch there so that i dont have to do more cooking just to feed my self... time cinsuming and it was only 30 bucks for a good lunch.... although i'm not a bit hungry (im on my diet) i have to eat something i dont even eat a breakfast that morning... whew.. what a great lunch.. im full... after that we decided to leave the eatery and have our time spent on what we will do....
(the long wait) after our vacant pass out.. it was 3 in the afternoon my classmates has their own class... and so do i... we look for our instructress whew... after the long wait some of the faculty told us that there was a meeting held between the new teachers last year and in the present year... the long wait has ended knowing that the next subject will be at 6 in the evening.. wahahaha!!! were lucky.... wahahah!!! ive spent my time playing games at my laptop.... oh btw... the former set of the student council which i am also an officer, and auditor to be exact... conducts a meeting held by the former governor... regarding some matters that was not really great to hear... but then our great governor explains us what to do.. for some students that will question us about the things happened and for the WHY questions..... and then after that my gaming time proceeds.... until we've seen that the meeting ended.. we have a class at 6pm...
(EMOREXIA) hahahahaha after the long break many of our classmates go to the nearest restaurant where they can have a drink... (i think it was a small drink)... but they decided to return school and attend the last class that the day had... our teacher noticed that they were all drunk although they were not... but school policies says that no student should be allow in the class which in the presence of any alcoholic beverages... i think that is in the student manual..... but out teacher gave them a second chance.... after that... things suddenly changes and our classmates have to do what they want to do... although the subject concentrate about our thesis.... but our teacher noticed the keloids in my left arm... and then i open up the story behind... after she knows why... he start calling me names... at first ANOREXIA but when time pass it leads to the name EMOREXIA... wahaha actually i like it... EMOREXIA... meaning.... the status of a person named rex (which is me) who is in deep pain and has nothing to do but to hurt him self by making cuts/slashes so that he can surpass the pain in his heart delt by a girl that he truly loves... hehehe silly me to think of this definition.... after that whew.. the time pass till 9pm... class is finished i have to go home... i have a class at 7am tomorow...
(aircon gone mad) after the checking of attendance we shutdown the desktop units and the battery backups... i decided to shut the aircon... after shutting it.. while im going to the circuit braker to close the electricity of the entire room.... the aircon runs again.. whoaw... what a creepy thing... but then i have no choice but to close it again and close the entire room.... wahehehehe...
(chopstick) after getting home late... around 930 at our wallclock... i ask my mom whats menu for the dinner.. it was a noodle dish.. so decided to eat the noodle dish and have a piece of chicken that i chop into two... and a can of SMBL... wahehhe (see the picture ofr clarification) its just take me minutes i think not more than 5 minutes i've finish it... hmmm im full.... i have to clean the dishes i used.. and prepare my things so i can take the whole night resting.....
goodnight rekkusu....
a fine day right!!!!
hope you have a better day tomorrow....
THANKS for reading!!!
sayonara
(morning delight) i woke up around 8am.... of course i have first go to the nearest comfort room to pee.. heheheh... it was my morning routine.... after upon peeing i decided to have a rest and watch my niece plays while he is watching tv.. hehehe he is so cute and cudly.... while watching sometimes i do things that will irritate him... heheheh i always do that.... so that our house will be noisy with all the screaming of that child..... wahahaha... (although his parents will be mad at him)...
after that i decided to take a bath cause i would like to go to school early, so i can make my work station routine.... wahehehe..... and then after my preparation going to school i made it early around 845am wahaha to quite early for a class at 10am..... weeeeee.....
(work station) after a long walk (not really a long walk) i've connected this laptop to the network cable so i can do things that considerably schedule....(routine again).... after my laptop boots... a friend of mine which actually invited me yesterday (wednesday) to have a drink PMed me on my YM... and he is asking me i was'nt avle to go the place where we will have a drink..... a long conversation happened.... actually its not my fault.... :(...
having ready before i go to class i noticed that some of the desktop computers at the work station are not functioning, i decide to make a quick maintenance so that my job at the work station will functioned.... whew... damn its almost 10am.. im gonna be late.... so i decide to leave the machines and then proceed to class.....
(a MASTER) whew i'm in a hurry.... to not got late at the first subject.... after noticing that my class are not in the area of our room..... (outside the room).... WAAAAA i am late... heheh.. i just take a peek so i can see who's inside the room and then i entered.....
after seeing my instructor telling something and explaining it... i took a chair and listen although im not interested of what he say i focus.... wahahha what can i do.. i have to listen... hehehehe... our instructor explains the new grading system he is proposing so that the majority of our class will getting a passed grade in him... waheheh.. he is too kind yet the requirements for the subject is really hard... wahahha!!!! after his explanation and etc is finished he gave us a problem that we will had as an activity... and while im doing this.. damn i forgot the scripting language i'll be using to this.. it almost a year since that programming language.. wahehhe.. i have to as a classmate so i can follow at the activity... wahahha... and then POOF hehe im done with the activity.... oh btw or instructor said that after who is done with the activity can go out and take the rest of time a break.... wheeeew.. so lucky....
(lunch at the neighbor) after waiting for my classmate to finish the activity that our instructor gave.... whew it was lunch and we have to walk to go the eatery where they always eat their lunch... it was at ate vangie's canteen our neighbor... heheheh... i decided to eat my lunch there so that i dont have to do more cooking just to feed my self... time cinsuming and it was only 30 bucks for a good lunch.... although i'm not a bit hungry (im on my diet) i have to eat something i dont even eat a breakfast that morning... whew.. what a great lunch.. im full... after that we decided to leave the eatery and have our time spent on what we will do....
(the long wait) after our vacant pass out.. it was 3 in the afternoon my classmates has their own class... and so do i... we look for our instructress whew... after the long wait some of the faculty told us that there was a meeting held between the new teachers last year and in the present year... the long wait has ended knowing that the next subject will be at 6 in the evening.. wahahaha!!! were lucky.... wahahah!!! ive spent my time playing games at my laptop.... oh btw... the former set of the student council which i am also an officer, and auditor to be exact... conducts a meeting held by the former governor... regarding some matters that was not really great to hear... but then our great governor explains us what to do.. for some students that will question us about the things happened and for the WHY questions..... and then after that my gaming time proceeds.... until we've seen that the meeting ended.. we have a class at 6pm...
(EMOREXIA) hahahahaha after the long break many of our classmates go to the nearest restaurant where they can have a drink... (i think it was a small drink)... but they decided to return school and attend the last class that the day had... our teacher noticed that they were all drunk although they were not... but school policies says that no student should be allow in the class which in the presence of any alcoholic beverages... i think that is in the student manual..... but out teacher gave them a second chance.... after that... things suddenly changes and our classmates have to do what they want to do... although the subject concentrate about our thesis.... but our teacher noticed the keloids in my left arm... and then i open up the story behind... after she knows why... he start calling me names... at first ANOREXIA but when time pass it leads to the name EMOREXIA... wahaha actually i like it... EMOREXIA... meaning.... the status of a person named rex (which is me) who is in deep pain and has nothing to do but to hurt him self by making cuts/slashes so that he can surpass the pain in his heart delt by a girl that he truly loves... hehehe silly me to think of this definition.... after that whew.. the time pass till 9pm... class is finished i have to go home... i have a class at 7am tomorow...
(aircon gone mad) after the checking of attendance we shutdown the desktop units and the battery backups... i decided to shut the aircon... after shutting it.. while im going to the circuit braker to close the electricity of the entire room.... the aircon runs again.. whoaw... what a creepy thing... but then i have no choice but to close it again and close the entire room.... wahehehehe...
(chopstick) after getting home late... around 930 at our wallclock... i ask my mom whats menu for the dinner.. it was a noodle dish.. so decided to eat the noodle dish and have a piece of chicken that i chop into two... and a can of SMBL... wahehhe (see the picture ofr clarification) its just take me minutes i think not more than 5 minutes i've finish it... hmmm im full.... i have to clean the dishes i used.. and prepare my things so i can take the whole night resting.....
goodnight rekkusu....
a fine day right!!!!
hope you have a better day tomorrow....
THANKS for reading!!!
sayonara
Friday, July 31, 2009
Skipping out scheduled blogging because im very very HURT!!!!
damn its friday and whatever happens the early time is just a thing making feels so much pleased!!!
whoooooooooooooooooo!!!!
after a sudden!!!!
i've seen her walking with a guy!!! SHIT!!! my feelings where CRUSHED and i dont know what to do!!! IM JEALOUS!! yes im jealous!!!! damn me!!!....
im not in the position of the way i must act... but how can i accept the fact that i'm still in LOVE with her!!! yup!!! although months past!!! i still love her!!! i really love her so!!!! gosh!!!!
with out prior thinking i make a last option to get hurt my self again!!! seen the picture???
yup its my own wrist!!! and no questions ask i've cut my self!!! and now im feeling quite good!!!
i spent the rest of the time today drinking coffee at COFFEE HUB near her house... damn i hate my self right now!!!
i think what i've seen that time will be in my mind for a long time!!!!
then!!! suddenly!!! she just message in my mobile.. saying
"ui mxta na? xenxia na now lng nkapagtext dami kz gngawa ni mama e.."
damn how could i answer that question after seeing her with someone!!!
im posting this blog right now with tears.. although its now in the outside i can consider i just cant show my tears having people around me....
damn i hate this...
i really do!!!
kill me please.... im begging someone!!! please... kill me!!!
x_X (panting, gasping for air)
die rekkusu (i hope i can)
whoooooooooooooooooo!!!!
after a sudden!!!!
i've seen her walking with a guy!!! SHIT!!! my feelings where CRUSHED and i dont know what to do!!! IM JEALOUS!! yes im jealous!!!! damn me!!!....
im not in the position of the way i must act... but how can i accept the fact that i'm still in LOVE with her!!! yup!!! although months past!!! i still love her!!! i really love her so!!!! gosh!!!!
with out prior thinking i make a last option to get hurt my self again!!! seen the picture???
yup its my own wrist!!! and no questions ask i've cut my self!!! and now im feeling quite good!!!
i spent the rest of the time today drinking coffee at COFFEE HUB near her house... damn i hate my self right now!!!
i think what i've seen that time will be in my mind for a long time!!!!
then!!! suddenly!!! she just message in my mobile.. saying
"ui mxta na? xenxia na now lng nkapagtext dami kz gngawa ni mama e.."
damn how could i answer that question after seeing her with someone!!!
im posting this blog right now with tears.. although its now in the outside i can consider i just cant show my tears having people around me....
damn i hate this...
i really do!!!
kill me please.... im begging someone!!! please... kill me!!!
x_X (panting, gasping for air)
die rekkusu (i hope i can)
Thursday, July 30, 2009
WEDNESDAY of anxeity!!!!
damn!!!! its a wasted wednesday, i really hate what happened..... although some things are quite good but to sum up!!! its really not good enough to satisfy me.......
(early again at school) weeeee!!! after great things happen that tuesday.... sort of things are not the same as wednesday... i went to school early just to make some Internet updates at my work station at school... and i had plans what will be happening at the whole day......
(a friend at a Yahoo Messenger) while im doing sort of things online, a friend BUZZ me at my Yahoo Messenger and inviting to have a drink (alcoholic drink) around 4pm upon this... i agreed of course i should and my plans are gratefully organized... damn i gonna like the result of my wednesday... (but its not as expected).....
(plan of going to carla's place) the actual plan i made first after lunch, i'll visit carla's mom at their house.. and i had decided to brought a chocolate cake as a gift (i actually bring something when i always visit at their place)... while making sort of things and having a great day... i message a friend using my mobile phone to ask what time will he out of school, so that we will have a little talk and have a walk around the malls here... upon messaging he replied "we are now going out of school... we are on half day!!!! no classes in the afternoon" damn!!! upon receiving that message all of sudden my plans going at carla's place to have a talk or chat with her mom is canceled.... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!!!! it is not ok to me obviously... it ruined almost my day!!! damn!!!! damn!!! f*ck!!!! it destroys my mood.... so my plans going to her is canceled i decided to go to the mall and have my time playing TEKKEN TAG until 4pm.....
(a walk with a friend) while thinking of all just happen a friend of mine visit me here at my work station and actual routine, we had a conversation some laughs, some technical aspects and even the WIFI zone the i used to connect when i got near to the BASKETBALL COURT of our school.... (i have the WEP key there) hehehe.... after some conversation my friend told me that he had no classes at all and he planned to go to the mall... (wow just like me what a coincidence) so we decided to go out right away... (actually i borrowed a 150 pesos to him) hehehe some sort of so i'll not gonna be short if i'll have a drink around 4pm..... upon both agreed... we walk from the school going to the mall wooooohhh!! its a long walk and its around 12 in the afternoon wahahaha the sun is shining but the clouds are blocking its ray to us... weeeee its not that really hot.... just good enough to have a walk!!!! and in an instant we arrived at the city proper of the town... wahehehe!!!! ohhhh btw... upon walking i make a peak at carla's place to check wether there are people at their house but nothings outside... only the motorbike of her dad was there...
(TEKKEN TAG TIME) after arriving at the mall, my friend and i went to the location of the game machine of tekken tag that is always the first thing i do when i got in that mall except for singing in the videoke with my friends i always play tekken tag there... back to the topic... i was surprise when i got there... my common friend that always play tekken and some of my mentors of tekken were there wow this a chance having a battle with them to gain more expirience in them.... luckily, i had a game with a friend which has the unnatural talent in that game in short he is sort of a pro in that game... the score is 1-3... heheh i've lost 3 time but i win atleast 1 not bad enough for having a battle with him... not like years ago... i've always lost to them... wahehehe... my chars in the TEKKEN are.. ANNA (i really love this character i dont know why but im good enough using this character) Julia (weeee this girl can make a extreme damage in cheap shots when im using her...) GANRYU (wahahah they always said that this character is heavy meaning slow but when im using him.. he still fast for me and they always say why it looks like hes fast for a big guy in that game) upon playing some expectator plays and actually they lost... more practice dudes!!!! oh btw i've skipped playing tekken years ago and back since the summer... wahahaha luckily ANNA and JULIA is my main character.....
(WIFI ZONE) after playing in the mall a friend of mine came to the mall.. (some sort of he will get the AKOMISMO dog tag the he ask me to get from the retailer near the mall) upon his arrival... i gave him what he ask for and pay me 80 pesos for that wahehehe (the price of the dog tag is 40 each and he ask me to get two of them) upon paying me we decide to go to their house to waste my time there while waiting for the confirmation message of the drink that will happen around 4pm.... actually that time is almost 4pm... so while walking i decide to bring out my laptop and check the wifi hot spot near that mall... luckily i got a signal and tries to connect hehehehe.... so we went to jollibee and try to open some internet site but ew failed the wifi signal was lost.... so we decided to go out and walk near the City Hall... while were walking we look for a place where we can open my laptop again and connect to the WIFI signal so that we can do some internet surfing for free.... luckily we see a spot... and decided to sit over there while people are walking in front of us... wahahahaha i think they're actually thinking why we bring out the laptop and thinking what are we doing.. wahehhe..
there it was, we check both of our accounts in friendster and i introduced to him my blog here at blogspot.com... wahehehe after seeing my blog he said to me that this thing is NOSE BLEED (some sort of expression of some filipino's who see some people saying word in english wahehehe) actually this a internation portion of the web having a blog that can read all over the world, if you dont use a understandable language who do you think will read your blog... waheheheh..............
after the friendster thing we decide to watch video in YOUTUBE yeah having the access of wifi in that place and only the two of us the bandwidth of the connection is so high having a full signal connection the downloading of the video in youtube is easy... yeahhh we've watch a lot of videos...
after several time wasted while watching damn i've waited for some text message but no one is messaging me until my damn mobile phone receiving messages whooa 10 messages in an instant my friend which is with me that time i've just got his message and saying im going to the mall.. and my friend message that invites me to have a drink just arrive around 5pm waaaaaaaaahhh!!! damn network of SMART!!! wahhhh.. it really not a good day to me.... so i decided to cancel all of my plans for the day and instead spare my time at my friends house....
(7pm i was home) after the wasted time i spent at my friends house i decided to go home... yup i decided just because the battery of my laptop is just to low wahahah!!! after i arrive at my place.... i have seen the god daughter of my mother sitting near their place... so i talk to her knowing that early in that morning her mother told me that her classmate bring a letter to me from my X-girlfriend, so i decided to get the letter even though is not quite unusual to me to received letters from ladies (im not a good looking person.... im a chubby one).... after getting the letter i decided to enter the house premises.... after i got my things off.... i'm just tired that day the whole day... having all things i planned ruined.... i just sit back... and feel the rest of time for relaxation... wahahaha!!! i've remember it's my dad birthday so some simple dish were there... but im really tired that day and i decided to take the night to rest....
(1opm the dinner) having the day sort of not as i expected... damn i became hungry around 10pm, i've just remember after having a breakfast around 8am, i've never eat since then... ow!! i eat a snack at my friends house wahahaha a VOICE combo sandwich and a chippy (RED) and a mountain dew... waheheh.. but around that time my stomach aches and i have to eat something, luckily there is a barbeque dish weeee.. and then i eat a piece and a half... wahahah!!! should i call this a dinner or a mid-night snack!! wahaha.... while eating i've just remember hey its WWE RAW at jacktv, so ive tuned it to that station... weeee luckily its not finished i think its on the way half of the show... heheh... while watching i see SHAQIEL ONIEL at the ring wow shaq is on raw... waheheh having a talk with chris jerico and suddenly the bigshow came... wahehehe
after watching tv i've decided to got my thins prepare so i go to bed.... i got into bed around 11... having all the routines and preparations... and make some SMS messages... around 12am of thurdays i decide to take a sleep... suddenly my dad arrives and i open the door... and get back to sleep.....
not a quite day right rekkusu!!!
sleepwell rekkusu!!!
smile always!!!
THANKS for reading!!!
sayonara!!!!!
(early again at school) weeeee!!! after great things happen that tuesday.... sort of things are not the same as wednesday... i went to school early just to make some Internet updates at my work station at school... and i had plans what will be happening at the whole day......
(a friend at a Yahoo Messenger) while im doing sort of things online, a friend BUZZ me at my Yahoo Messenger and inviting to have a drink (alcoholic drink) around 4pm upon this... i agreed of course i should and my plans are gratefully organized... damn i gonna like the result of my wednesday... (but its not as expected).....
(plan of going to carla's place) the actual plan i made first after lunch, i'll visit carla's mom at their house.. and i had decided to brought a chocolate cake as a gift (i actually bring something when i always visit at their place)... while making sort of things and having a great day... i message a friend using my mobile phone to ask what time will he out of school, so that we will have a little talk and have a walk around the malls here... upon messaging he replied "we are now going out of school... we are on half day!!!! no classes in the afternoon" damn!!! upon receiving that message all of sudden my plans going at carla's place to have a talk or chat with her mom is canceled.... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!!!! it is not ok to me obviously... it ruined almost my day!!! damn!!!! damn!!! f*ck!!!! it destroys my mood.... so my plans going to her is canceled i decided to go to the mall and have my time playing TEKKEN TAG until 4pm.....
(a walk with a friend) while thinking of all just happen a friend of mine visit me here at my work station and actual routine, we had a conversation some laughs, some technical aspects and even the WIFI zone the i used to connect when i got near to the BASKETBALL COURT of our school.... (i have the WEP key there) hehehe.... after some conversation my friend told me that he had no classes at all and he planned to go to the mall... (wow just like me what a coincidence) so we decided to go out right away... (actually i borrowed a 150 pesos to him) hehehe some sort of so i'll not gonna be short if i'll have a drink around 4pm..... upon both agreed... we walk from the school going to the mall wooooohhh!! its a long walk and its around 12 in the afternoon wahahaha the sun is shining but the clouds are blocking its ray to us... weeeee its not that really hot.... just good enough to have a walk!!!! and in an instant we arrived at the city proper of the town... wahehehe!!!! ohhhh btw... upon walking i make a peak at carla's place to check wether there are people at their house but nothings outside... only the motorbike of her dad was there...
(TEKKEN TAG TIME) after arriving at the mall, my friend and i went to the location of the game machine of tekken tag that is always the first thing i do when i got in that mall except for singing in the videoke with my friends i always play tekken tag there... back to the topic... i was surprise when i got there... my common friend that always play tekken and some of my mentors of tekken were there wow this a chance having a battle with them to gain more expirience in them.... luckily, i had a game with a friend which has the unnatural talent in that game in short he is sort of a pro in that game... the score is 1-3... heheh i've lost 3 time but i win atleast 1 not bad enough for having a battle with him... not like years ago... i've always lost to them... wahehehe... my chars in the TEKKEN are.. ANNA (i really love this character i dont know why but im good enough using this character) Julia (weeee this girl can make a extreme damage in cheap shots when im using her...) GANRYU (wahahah they always said that this character is heavy meaning slow but when im using him.. he still fast for me and they always say why it looks like hes fast for a big guy in that game) upon playing some expectator plays and actually they lost... more practice dudes!!!! oh btw i've skipped playing tekken years ago and back since the summer... wahahaha luckily ANNA and JULIA is my main character.....
(WIFI ZONE) after playing in the mall a friend of mine came to the mall.. (some sort of he will get the AKOMISMO dog tag the he ask me to get from the retailer near the mall) upon his arrival... i gave him what he ask for and pay me 80 pesos for that wahehehe (the price of the dog tag is 40 each and he ask me to get two of them) upon paying me we decide to go to their house to waste my time there while waiting for the confirmation message of the drink that will happen around 4pm.... actually that time is almost 4pm... so while walking i decide to bring out my laptop and check the wifi hot spot near that mall... luckily i got a signal and tries to connect hehehehe.... so we went to jollibee and try to open some internet site but ew failed the wifi signal was lost.... so we decided to go out and walk near the City Hall... while were walking we look for a place where we can open my laptop again and connect to the WIFI signal so that we can do some internet surfing for free.... luckily we see a spot... and decided to sit over there while people are walking in front of us... wahahahaha i think they're actually thinking why we bring out the laptop and thinking what are we doing.. wahehhe..
there it was, we check both of our accounts in friendster and i introduced to him my blog here at blogspot.com... wahehehe after seeing my blog he said to me that this thing is NOSE BLEED (some sort of expression of some filipino's who see some people saying word in english wahehehe) actually this a internation portion of the web having a blog that can read all over the world, if you dont use a understandable language who do you think will read your blog... waheheheh..............
after the friendster thing we decide to watch video in YOUTUBE yeah having the access of wifi in that place and only the two of us the bandwidth of the connection is so high having a full signal connection the downloading of the video in youtube is easy... yeahhh we've watch a lot of videos...
after several time wasted while watching damn i've waited for some text message but no one is messaging me until my damn mobile phone receiving messages whooa 10 messages in an instant my friend which is with me that time i've just got his message and saying im going to the mall.. and my friend message that invites me to have a drink just arrive around 5pm waaaaaaaaahhh!!! damn network of SMART!!! wahhhh.. it really not a good day to me.... so i decided to cancel all of my plans for the day and instead spare my time at my friends house....
(7pm i was home) after the wasted time i spent at my friends house i decided to go home... yup i decided just because the battery of my laptop is just to low wahahah!!! after i arrive at my place.... i have seen the god daughter of my mother sitting near their place... so i talk to her knowing that early in that morning her mother told me that her classmate bring a letter to me from my X-girlfriend, so i decided to get the letter even though is not quite unusual to me to received letters from ladies (im not a good looking person.... im a chubby one).... after getting the letter i decided to enter the house premises.... after i got my things off.... i'm just tired that day the whole day... having all things i planned ruined.... i just sit back... and feel the rest of time for relaxation... wahahaha!!! i've remember it's my dad birthday so some simple dish were there... but im really tired that day and i decided to take the night to rest....
(1opm the dinner) having the day sort of not as i expected... damn i became hungry around 10pm, i've just remember after having a breakfast around 8am, i've never eat since then... ow!! i eat a snack at my friends house wahahaha a VOICE combo sandwich and a chippy (RED) and a mountain dew... waheheh.. but around that time my stomach aches and i have to eat something, luckily there is a barbeque dish weeee.. and then i eat a piece and a half... wahahah!!! should i call this a dinner or a mid-night snack!! wahaha.... while eating i've just remember hey its WWE RAW at jacktv, so ive tuned it to that station... weeee luckily its not finished i think its on the way half of the show... heheh... while watching i see SHAQIEL ONIEL at the ring wow shaq is on raw... waheheh having a talk with chris jerico and suddenly the bigshow came... wahehehe
after watching tv i've decided to got my thins prepare so i go to bed.... i got into bed around 11... having all the routines and preparations... and make some SMS messages... around 12am of thurdays i decide to take a sleep... suddenly my dad arrives and i open the door... and get back to sleep.....
not a quite day right rekkusu!!!
sleepwell rekkusu!!!
smile always!!!
THANKS for reading!!!
sayonara!!!!!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
TUESDAY of happiness!!!
weew!!!! its was tuesday!!! what can i say its the day were i go to school and my class is from 5 to 7pm only wahahaha!!!! and i love that subject it was PHP and the teacher in that subject is my master and my friend....
(the long break) i went to school at 10am, early right!! yah i had to go there just to make some things and to be at my workstation in a computer shop that been operated by our school. it is an IGP, i've 5 years here what can i say, i dont even received any allowance since 3 years wahahah!!! its ok i just spent my time here serving to those student which commonly make rentals at the desktop computer that this IGP had... ow btw this were my computer thingy starts, although me and my self is really want to learn from this... hehehe all my vacant time were spent here... i love what im doing here......
(all of a sudden) i had to go to class at 5pm weee im sure i'll not be late.. hehehe.... one of my classmate told me that there will be no classes.. damn im quite disappointed but in the other side i really dont believed it because that teacher my master is that kind of teacher who not commonly skipping classes even he had a sore throat he still teaching us...
one of my friend sent me an SMS that telling me that my teacher will arriving at school... i was confuse then if there will be class in him or not!!! damn my plans going to the mall was broken wahaha...
around 5pm something my teacher arrives and i talk to him and then suddenly after knowing whats going on... whew!!!! deep breaths and silence is only thing i can do... i was uncomfortable of the fact he is saying, and the things that will gonna happen... but then he still saying about the SMS message of having no class at his subject... the final talk to this matter will be held on thursday 10am in the laboratory time of our subject...
(caught in act) wahahah funny after looking for some of our remaining classmate inside the school... were almost less than 20 i think out of 50+ students in our section... after we found them some talks.. we decide to leave the school... while leaving my dad caught me going out of school... wahaha wrong timing my idea of going again to the mall was canceled and i had to go home with him.. huhuhu...
(happy birthday dad) after arriving home.... my family decide to go out for a dinner, suddenly i remembered that it was my father bday tomorrow july 29, 2009 (HAPPY 53 BIRTHDAY DAD "i think") we went to the restaurant that we commonly go when we're eating dinner or celebrating events regarding with family matters. its been month since the last time i go to this place... heheh i found something new in that place the waitress and ladies in the grill were new employees (i think) weeee i have to eat my favorite dish here... wahaha!!!! after ordering the meals we gonna eat (Shashimi"my favorite", beef tapa, pancit, pork sisig "my brother favorite", kalderetang ewan "i dont know if it is beef or pork", pop corn, banana chips, oriental chicken, garlic fried rice, oriental rice, plain rice and some alcoholic beverages) weeeeeeeeee.... im full so much... waheheh.. luckily i still love that shashimi wahehe and i ate using chopsticks only.. wahahah!!! thanks for the treat dad HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
(at home and awake till 12am wednesday) having a good dinner... its resting time.... i used to sleep at the function room of our house having all the entertainment system i love the place while i am resting... i borrowed my brother phone to login my UZZAP account since months since my last login... and of course i look for my favorite chatroom the F150...
after my login i just chat with some of the people there... and yet some of those id selling their nude picture video etc.. damn i hate those guys their flooding the chat room... luckily i had a chat with a id |Yeza~NUi*07 she is 21 located at pampanga, angeles pampanga to be exact... and then a long chat held.. funny things he called me ENGOT and STUPID because of my personality being a SUICIDAL (yes i am a suicidal, i used to make cuts and slahes in my left arm and wrist) i cant blame myself being this, its been a months since i've learned this and just because of a girl i truly love the most...
back to the topic... having a chat with her makes a lot of time spent and i really enjoy chatting with her... nyahaha!!! after some of the chatter leaving the room were still chatting and making things more interesting until we talk something about my keloids yup im expiriencing keliod problems right now after making the IM SORRY cut using a razor blade... waheheheh... what can i say im just weak... anyways... the time ticks to 12mn whoaaaa!!! i decided to end the conversation and get some sleep... ow btw i get his mobile number wahaha.. COOL!!!!
sleeptight rekkusu!!!
dreambig rekkusu!!!
IM HAPPY OF WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY!!! HOPE WEDNESDAY IS A BANG!!!!
sayonara.....
thanks for reading....
(the long break) i went to school at 10am, early right!! yah i had to go there just to make some things and to be at my workstation in a computer shop that been operated by our school. it is an IGP, i've 5 years here what can i say, i dont even received any allowance since 3 years wahahah!!! its ok i just spent my time here serving to those student which commonly make rentals at the desktop computer that this IGP had... ow btw this were my computer thingy starts, although me and my self is really want to learn from this... hehehe all my vacant time were spent here... i love what im doing here......
(all of a sudden) i had to go to class at 5pm weee im sure i'll not be late.. hehehe.... one of my classmate told me that there will be no classes.. damn im quite disappointed but in the other side i really dont believed it because that teacher my master is that kind of teacher who not commonly skipping classes even he had a sore throat he still teaching us...
one of my friend sent me an SMS that telling me that my teacher will arriving at school... i was confuse then if there will be class in him or not!!! damn my plans going to the mall was broken wahaha...
around 5pm something my teacher arrives and i talk to him and then suddenly after knowing whats going on... whew!!!! deep breaths and silence is only thing i can do... i was uncomfortable of the fact he is saying, and the things that will gonna happen... but then he still saying about the SMS message of having no class at his subject... the final talk to this matter will be held on thursday 10am in the laboratory time of our subject...
(caught in act) wahahah funny after looking for some of our remaining classmate inside the school... were almost less than 20 i think out of 50+ students in our section... after we found them some talks.. we decide to leave the school... while leaving my dad caught me going out of school... wahaha wrong timing my idea of going again to the mall was canceled and i had to go home with him.. huhuhu...
(happy birthday dad) after arriving home.... my family decide to go out for a dinner, suddenly i remembered that it was my father bday tomorrow july 29, 2009 (HAPPY 53 BIRTHDAY DAD "i think") we went to the restaurant that we commonly go when we're eating dinner or celebrating events regarding with family matters. its been month since the last time i go to this place... heheh i found something new in that place the waitress and ladies in the grill were new employees (i think) weeee i have to eat my favorite dish here... wahaha!!!! after ordering the meals we gonna eat (Shashimi"my favorite", beef tapa, pancit, pork sisig "my brother favorite", kalderetang ewan "i dont know if it is beef or pork", pop corn, banana chips, oriental chicken, garlic fried rice, oriental rice, plain rice and some alcoholic beverages) weeeeeeeeee.... im full so much... waheheh.. luckily i still love that shashimi wahehe and i ate using chopsticks only.. wahahah!!! thanks for the treat dad HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
(at home and awake till 12am wednesday) having a good dinner... its resting time.... i used to sleep at the function room of our house having all the entertainment system i love the place while i am resting... i borrowed my brother phone to login my UZZAP account since months since my last login... and of course i look for my favorite chatroom the F150...
after my login i just chat with some of the people there... and yet some of those id selling their nude picture video etc.. damn i hate those guys their flooding the chat room... luckily i had a chat with a id |Yeza~NUi*07 she is 21 located at pampanga, angeles pampanga to be exact... and then a long chat held.. funny things he called me ENGOT and STUPID because of my personality being a SUICIDAL (yes i am a suicidal, i used to make cuts and slahes in my left arm and wrist) i cant blame myself being this, its been a months since i've learned this and just because of a girl i truly love the most...
back to the topic... having a chat with her makes a lot of time spent and i really enjoy chatting with her... nyahaha!!! after some of the chatter leaving the room were still chatting and making things more interesting until we talk something about my keloids yup im expiriencing keliod problems right now after making the IM SORRY cut using a razor blade... waheheheh... what can i say im just weak... anyways... the time ticks to 12mn whoaaaa!!! i decided to end the conversation and get some sleep... ow btw i get his mobile number wahaha.. COOL!!!!
sleeptight rekkusu!!!
dreambig rekkusu!!!
IM HAPPY OF WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY!!! HOPE WEDNESDAY IS A BANG!!!!
sayonara.....
thanks for reading....
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Monday of Everything I Deserve!!!!
weew!!!! It was monday, the start of school activities for the week and yet since the weekends, same things as always, i'm still in the life of being drunk again!!! almost 5 weeks ago since i became like this, funny thing she don't even bother... well what can i say i knew she did'nt even care at all!!! hahahah!!!
weew!!!! anyways its quite familiar to the activities in monday having a class only and 3 to 4 in the afternoon and 5 to 7 in the evening, wow what a great schedule. if only im not required to wake up evryday at the time of 7 in the morning... i had to look for my niece and take good care of him since my mom will go to school at 8...
anyways im just sharing you some part of my freaking life... hahaha!!!!
lets go back to my school activities, damn i really hate the result of the upcoming convention that i and my classmates will be attending... its making me unsatisfied perhaps it was just my opinion... damn i hate it.... it was being agreed that it will be a 2 day seminar at UP Diliman!!!, but then again... an election was held.... wooooooooooh!!! it was a close election having a result of 37 for a day of seminar and 34 for a two day seminar.... what do you expect happen... the majority wins!!! hahaha sadly i really hate the result!!!! i can't blame them.... and i am not actually doing that!!!
getting home its been quite hard for me, even though the school is just a walking distance to my place... but its raining and the hardest part of it.... i always bring my laptop since i bought it (actually my mother and my brother cash out just to buy this laptop thanks to them!!!)... damn even though the rain is not that strong im just worry about the laptop that i need to cover it up with my POLO and my HANCKERCHIEF... huhuhuhu im freaking walking under the falling rain!!!
having got home... i've just check out what happened to my things in that laptop bag!!! hahaha..... weeeeeeee my things are not wet at all but my laptop is cold... i wonder why???.... well im happy its still working (actually im using it right now).... yeah!!!!
ow... by the way!!! hahaha i've just remember damn!!! i really love watching the latenight show in JACK TV... damn that HANDPICKED it was the "WWE:NIGHT OF THE CHAMPIONS" and i really love what happened in that show except for the WWE Champion is still in RANDY ORTON's hand... POOR John Cena and Tripple H.... hahaha!!! ow BTW the ENIGMA Jeff Hardy gets the WWE Heavy Weight champion from CM Punk, poor Punk he tries to run way.. but Hardy followed him and take back to the ring!!! and use his finishing move..!!! weee what a great show!!!! actually it was almost 1am of tuesday the show ends!!! damn its late (although its morning)... hahaha....
weeee.. this is just some things i remember since yesterday and im trying to recall it!! hehehe...
THANKS for reading this blog!!!
SAYONARA!!!!
weew!!!! anyways its quite familiar to the activities in monday having a class only and 3 to 4 in the afternoon and 5 to 7 in the evening, wow what a great schedule. if only im not required to wake up evryday at the time of 7 in the morning... i had to look for my niece and take good care of him since my mom will go to school at 8...
anyways im just sharing you some part of my freaking life... hahaha!!!!
lets go back to my school activities, damn i really hate the result of the upcoming convention that i and my classmates will be attending... its making me unsatisfied perhaps it was just my opinion... damn i hate it.... it was being agreed that it will be a 2 day seminar at UP Diliman!!!, but then again... an election was held.... wooooooooooh!!! it was a close election having a result of 37 for a day of seminar and 34 for a two day seminar.... what do you expect happen... the majority wins!!! hahaha sadly i really hate the result!!!! i can't blame them.... and i am not actually doing that!!!
getting home its been quite hard for me, even though the school is just a walking distance to my place... but its raining and the hardest part of it.... i always bring my laptop since i bought it (actually my mother and my brother cash out just to buy this laptop thanks to them!!!)... damn even though the rain is not that strong im just worry about the laptop that i need to cover it up with my POLO and my HANCKERCHIEF... huhuhuhu im freaking walking under the falling rain!!!
having got home... i've just check out what happened to my things in that laptop bag!!! hahaha..... weeeeeeee my things are not wet at all but my laptop is cold... i wonder why???.... well im happy its still working (actually im using it right now).... yeah!!!!
ow... by the way!!! hahaha i've just remember damn!!! i really love watching the latenight show in JACK TV... damn that HANDPICKED it was the "WWE:NIGHT OF THE CHAMPIONS" and i really love what happened in that show except for the WWE Champion is still in RANDY ORTON's hand... POOR John Cena and Tripple H.... hahaha!!! ow BTW the ENIGMA Jeff Hardy gets the WWE Heavy Weight champion from CM Punk, poor Punk he tries to run way.. but Hardy followed him and take back to the ring!!! and use his finishing move..!!! weee what a great show!!!! actually it was almost 1am of tuesday the show ends!!! damn its late (although its morning)... hahaha....
weeee.. this is just some things i remember since yesterday and im trying to recall it!! hehehe...
THANKS for reading this blog!!!
SAYONARA!!!!
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