wheeeeeeew!!! blogging time.... sorry for not updating my blog, i've been busy in things that would make feel so delighted... heheheheh.... anyways time passes by and im happy of what i am right now... wheeew!!!... for the long time i've been in my other side i realized now im a new person... hahahah
after all i noticed that its august and still my thesis proposal is still not quite approved and i even looked for more company that will be our topic for the system that we are proposing... damn me... i didn't even manage my time in this.... hahahah... its examination week and i have to take more things seriously.... what a week.... and then i have still to find the better company that will suite my system proposal for my thesis.... huhuhuhu..... i have only 7 weeks left to gain a atleast 50% of my system... huhuhu!!! i hope everything will be fine even if things get more complicated...
signing off....
THANKS for reading!!!
rekkusu!!!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Happy I Realize.....
having thoughts of whats going on my life... and being locked and confused... and the fear of letting her go... i am now ready.... its a choice that i made.... i made this so that the both of us will be ok... its hard on my side.... but still i can do this... i maybe still in love with her but i have to move on...
rekkusu let her go.!!!!
yes it was been 6 weeks and now im ready... i dunno what changed my mind... its not all the message she said to me... but my other side telling me that its ok she not your lost anymore... maybe i've been the person that i was not used to be....
wheeeeewwww..!!! alcohol and cuts help me realize this... in fact i have to visit a clinic in the city to check out my keloids and cuts... the doctor was suprise... and she said something that makes smile the whole day round.... wahehehe although i have to skip class so i can go to that clinic...
many positive things got into me... making the feeling of being set free from where i locked my self... as always its been brutal to me that i have to cut my self and drink lots and lots of alcohol...
hahaha... (although i like it more and more) wheeeeeewwwww!!!!
things fastly change... im now ready... i will let her go... i'll just say SORRY.... perhaps this maybe awkward but still the feeling of making things more positively right will be just fine...
sorry i've been like an idiot to punish my self and take all this pain by my self, although my friends keeps helping me realize that it is not right anymore.... lucky i have them everytime....
if you can read this message i hope you understand....... here's a message for you CARLA!!!
rekkusu let her go.!!!!
yes it was been 6 weeks and now im ready... i dunno what changed my mind... its not all the message she said to me... but my other side telling me that its ok she not your lost anymore... maybe i've been the person that i was not used to be....
wheeeeewwww..!!! alcohol and cuts help me realize this... in fact i have to visit a clinic in the city to check out my keloids and cuts... the doctor was suprise... and she said something that makes smile the whole day round.... wahehehe although i have to skip class so i can go to that clinic...
many positive things got into me... making the feeling of being set free from where i locked my self... as always its been brutal to me that i have to cut my self and drink lots and lots of alcohol...
hahaha... (although i like it more and more) wheeeeeewwwww!!!!
things fastly change... im now ready... i will let her go... i'll just say SORRY.... perhaps this maybe awkward but still the feeling of making things more positively right will be just fine...
sorry i've been like an idiot to punish my self and take all this pain by my self, although my friends keeps helping me realize that it is not right anymore.... lucky i have them everytime....
if you can read this message i hope you understand....... here's a message for you CARLA!!!
***********
im sorry that at this time im still in loved with you.....
im sorry i cant accept the fact that i will loose you....
but still i have to do, even i dont like it....
maybe time will tell.... if you and i will cross roads again....
and still i have my feelings for you... would mine if i made a mistake again for loving you????
or maybe you will not accept it anymore.... because of knowing how desperate i was to have you... just let now.... and i will just accept your decision... i will understand.... thanks for letting me love you... i wish you find your man.... and ill try to find my woman..... thanks for everything... and your mom.... take good care of her... she's been there for me everytime i felt alone.. she spared her time just to make me peel comfortable... im very to lucky to meet her... and im very thankful knowing her.... thanks for the time and moments you shared with me.... wishing you all the happiness in your life.... take good care of your self.... i still love you.....
thanks......
BTW IM SORRY..... GOMENASAI KAARA!!!! GOMENASAI
***********
am i stupid or what... what can i say i just want to let her know... now im happy knowing what to do... i'll just let time decide what will happen next...
rekkusu you find youre self again....
im happy for you....
THANKS for reading ^_^
rekkusu
Sunday, August 2, 2009
The FINAL Set......
its been weeks since i became feeling dipressed at all and i have'nt notice that im wasted my time trying to move on and yet i can't... its been the 6 week of hurting my self last august 1... and i just to make my self more and more worst than ever... until.... i try to contact her the morning of august 2 around 1am... she ask me who am i... a bit hurt but i have to ask her about something that the final conclusion of my terrible process of moving on... having the long conversation that took hours via sms messaging... i made this conclusion...
she's just pushing me away from her... and having this noticed i even cut my self again... what can i do i just can accept that fact... she always asking that time what do i want her to do... does she even think of it??? shes the one i only adores... and i can accept the fact that she will be gone... i have to move on but still i was in his world locked down there... she always saying that i dont deserve her making things more complicated... why it should be like that... it is more better if she says that she dont even like me from the first place... for a guy who really gave up everything for the girl lady or women she loved the most... taking risk and even making sacrifices would be enough just to be with her... i've actually done it several times even though she did'nt noticed it... and one thing more... i cant moved on... why?? its just i've been built a good relatoinship with her mom that which always give me my strength.. i wish before she leaves and left the country.. we will have a good conversation that can even make this relationship of friendship more often... even though its hurting me more and more because i really do love her daughter and yet... damn i cant do anything right just to think of the things i should do just to make my self feel ok.... damn i hate whats really happening and im not happy of this concluson....
looking forward i want to make up more things that could pleased me and even make me more human... after the deepest cut i made that i call the tears of blood... yup im screaming that time deep inside and saying that i lover her so.... i need her... i miss her... i cried even it not really the right thing to do... i just keep my self in pain... i almost felt asleep but still i cant sleep... damn i hate everything happen but i think its the right choice...
back to the conversation... she even said that she know how that i was hurt... and she even said that its not easy to her knowing that there is someone like me who ruin his life just because of loving her... maybe i just carry this thing until i move on.. i need some right now... just to be heard... i need some to talk to... but i cant open this kind of thing in my family... i just need a friend that would listen to my nonsense arguments... (sigh) i want her... but i cant have her.... im desperate but still i cant get her... am i pathetic?? maybe...
i wish by the time im prepared that i can moved on... i can forget about her... i wish that i can make things more easy... and even make me more stronger... damn me... because of her i just been like this... i know really know theres nothing more i can do... help me.... i cant even take this anymore... i still love her even loving her is hurting me more and more... what can i say i just loved someone who i assumed can love me too because she showed that thing... damn me... damn!!!!
i think time will pass... and i can find a new one... i think.... but how can i found the new one.. if my mind and heart screaming out only her name.... since i felt this i knew i thought this lead to a happy ending... it was just my thought...
i hope i can move on...
rekkusu its just a one of the big trials in your life...
rekkusu face your fears....
rekkusu everything will be fine...
THANKS for reading....
rekkusu...
rekkusu brace your self... its now or never... its a choice of letting go... and you can do it... i trust you... i've seen you smiling even knowing that you're just faking it... rekkusu your not a kid... maybe you're childish... but you can do this... its now or never... maybe new cuts will be made but still you have to move on......
she's just pushing me away from her... and having this noticed i even cut my self again... what can i do i just can accept that fact... she always asking that time what do i want her to do... does she even think of it??? shes the one i only adores... and i can accept the fact that she will be gone... i have to move on but still i was in his world locked down there... she always saying that i dont deserve her making things more complicated... why it should be like that... it is more better if she says that she dont even like me from the first place... for a guy who really gave up everything for the girl lady or women she loved the most... taking risk and even making sacrifices would be enough just to be with her... i've actually done it several times even though she did'nt noticed it... and one thing more... i cant moved on... why?? its just i've been built a good relatoinship with her mom that which always give me my strength.. i wish before she leaves and left the country.. we will have a good conversation that can even make this relationship of friendship more often... even though its hurting me more and more because i really do love her daughter and yet... damn i cant do anything right just to think of the things i should do just to make my self feel ok.... damn i hate whats really happening and im not happy of this concluson....
looking forward i want to make up more things that could pleased me and even make me more human... after the deepest cut i made that i call the tears of blood... yup im screaming that time deep inside and saying that i lover her so.... i need her... i miss her... i cried even it not really the right thing to do... i just keep my self in pain... i almost felt asleep but still i cant sleep... damn i hate everything happen but i think its the right choice...
back to the conversation... she even said that she know how that i was hurt... and she even said that its not easy to her knowing that there is someone like me who ruin his life just because of loving her... maybe i just carry this thing until i move on.. i need some right now... just to be heard... i need some to talk to... but i cant open this kind of thing in my family... i just need a friend that would listen to my nonsense arguments... (sigh) i want her... but i cant have her.... im desperate but still i cant get her... am i pathetic?? maybe...
i wish by the time im prepared that i can moved on... i can forget about her... i wish that i can make things more easy... and even make me more stronger... damn me... because of her i just been like this... i know really know theres nothing more i can do... help me.... i cant even take this anymore... i still love her even loving her is hurting me more and more... what can i say i just loved someone who i assumed can love me too because she showed that thing... damn me... damn!!!!
i think time will pass... and i can find a new one... i think.... but how can i found the new one.. if my mind and heart screaming out only her name.... since i felt this i knew i thought this lead to a happy ending... it was just my thought...
i hope i can move on...
rekkusu its just a one of the big trials in your life...
rekkusu face your fears....
rekkusu everything will be fine...
THANKS for reading....
rekkusu...
rekkusu brace your self... its now or never... its a choice of letting go... and you can do it... i trust you... i've seen you smiling even knowing that you're just faking it... rekkusu your not a kid... maybe you're childish... but you can do this... its now or never... maybe new cuts will be made but still you have to move on......
FRIDAY when good things turns bad!!!!!
(lucky SMS) i set the alarm of my phone around 5am last night..... but suddenly im awake around 458 in the morning damn 2 minutes early that the alarm... wahahha... i shuts the alarm and take more rest... i feel still sleepy... till the clock ticks 6am im again awake... but the feeling of being sleepy is still in me so i decided to sleep again until it was 7am... damn i open my eyes and i see it was 7 i'll gonna be late for the early morning class... as a morning habit i always check my phone for the sms messages i've receive by the time i was sleeping... my class mate message me that our class will start 830am... whoaw.. i'm on the rush but after reading the message... whew its ok... i nid to relax now..... until it was 8 and i prepare to do things before going school....
(console programming) after the walk going to the school.. i directly go the classroom where our class held... the first batch of the class where too busy doing the activity given by our teacher.. hehehe... luckily im on second batch and i was'nt late... wahehehe... and after the time ticks till its our turn to start the activity.. i always used my laptop in any of my subject so that some of my classmates can used the laboratory premises to concentrate and learn to make programming...
it was a time consuming activty... actually im done except for the last number... wahahahaha some of my classmates asking me what to do.. so i taught them with all the knowledge i can share... wahehe... yes time is over and i get a score 20/25 not bad...
(thesis approve but not really) after my class my groupmates for the thesis ask me where i am and where gonna go to the company we choose to make a thesis... after we meet up, we decided to go to the company and gave the letter of intent to them so that they can tell to us if it is approve or not... upon giving the letter (ow btw a lady receieves the letter telling us that the branch manager is quite busy and he's not in the company premises) one of my groupmate invite us to have a lunch at the nearest fastfood chain which is JOLLIBEE..... so we decided to walk and go there....
(wifi addict & review) after arriving at jollibee... we get the niciest table... and order some of the establishment offers.. waheheheh as luch i choice K1 (1 pc burger steak) and the my mates choose C1 (1 pc chicken joy).... after eating we clean the table and start to open our laptop... (actually me and 1 of my mates had a laptop) then i start reading the slide presentation i copied on my mate... cause we will have a exam at 1pm... it was 1130 in the morning that we start reading the slide presentation that our teacher used to discuss the lecture last week...
i always look at wifi spots near any stablishment that where i was... sadly being a person who owns a laptop there's no any wifi signal in that stablishment... damn i hate it.. i was not able to post a blog at my blog... and even check my friendster account... huhuhu... i need a internet connection... huhuhu!!!!
(seminar) after eating at jollibee.... we decided to go to school by just walking it... and then we arrive early... hehehe... and waiting to our teacher, so that we could start the class which is like a seminar because of the long discussion, can you imagine a lecture class that has a 4-5 hours time... whoaw it boring right?.. after entering the room our teacher instructs us to get a 1/4 piece of paper and number it from 1 to 10... WTF its just only 10 items and the lecture is in two topics... wahahhaa what an exam.... luckily i got a score 9/10... wahahha very very lucky guy.... after that the seminar starts... heheheheh after a long discussion and my sit mate is challenging me a race in a game which network via wifi, so i agree with him... because the lecture is too boring... while were conducting a race in NFS Mostwanted... we always check our teacher so that we will not be caught playing while he's teaching.... hehehehe taking risk even we know its wrong thing to do... and then suddenly the lecture stops.. and it was finished... yes it only 3pm and we have time to play more... wahahhaha!!! so we decided to play until 4pm.... i always lost at my classmate wahehhe its ok im enjoying it.. whew.. what a race...
(when good things turns bad) having a great friday... im really happy... although i really miss someone... yup you know who... its carla... anyways having my friends timothy around the mall (we've decided to go the mall because its friday and my friend is waiting for his girlfried) i play the arcade game which i always play wahehhe TEKKEN addict... but suddenly everythings turns out not right... its 6pm, unexpected scenery... while standing and talking to a friend at the mall... i've seen her... im on panic seeing her... and suddenly she pass in front of me... but i noticed something.. she made a pause.. in front me i think she is thinking will she go back or proceed walking.... damn it's ok to me if only she's alone or with her girl friends... but i notice a guy.. yup a guy following her wearing their school uniform... damn my feeling got crushed... and im jealous of what i see... having the disturb feeling... i decided to play the game and yet i lost... damn im not feeling great... i told my friend im leaving... while walking around the mall to go out... i suddenly open my phone and get RUBY (the razor that i kept for 5 weeks that i always use when i make cuts/slashes) damn me with no more thinking... i cut my self.. deep cuts... making lots of blood pouring in my wrist.... i looked for her... to show what i've done to my self... but i cant find her... i decided to go out of the mall have a walk until i see my self in front of the coffee hub....
here's the deep cut although its on my previous blog i just want to post it again!!!!
(depress, coffee, wifi, and chatters) i decided to go enter the coffee hub.. although im not into drinking coffee... i just got one because im not feeling great and the establishment has a wifi connection, so i can post a blog regarding matters that i was hurt again.... after opening my laptop my brother message me and telling me that i got a new cut and he's worried about the keloids that will be the output of the cuts.. i just told him that i know what i was doing, and please just understand me... some of my friends message me... and try to comfort me... and even watch my mood via webcam... even my brothers girlfriend is concern at me... i know im not like this before but i suddenly changed just because i cant accept the fact the we're through damn me.... i love her so much im taking such risk just to have her again... even the payment for this is my own life...
having the time spent in chatting and dinking coffee, i've received an sms message from her using her moms number... and saying how am i???... damn my reaction to the question.. got into my nerves.. i just told her im not ok.... im really not... does she knows that she is the reason why im not ok??? how can she dont even noticed that... i cant believed it... damn.. im really hurt... im dipress.. i nid some to talk to... i cant cry... i cant....... im just taking advantage of the time coffee and even the chatters that chats with me so that i can still be ok... damn i really hate what happened.... huhuhuhuhuhuhu!!!!
(skipping up the rest of the story...... i dont wanna to talk more..... i cant tell it anymore....)
friday i felt like i was crusified...
im all alone...
i cry deep inside...
i love her so...
i wish i could be somebody else....
THANKS for reading!!!
rekkusu
(console programming) after the walk going to the school.. i directly go the classroom where our class held... the first batch of the class where too busy doing the activity given by our teacher.. hehehe... luckily im on second batch and i was'nt late... wahehehe... and after the time ticks till its our turn to start the activity.. i always used my laptop in any of my subject so that some of my classmates can used the laboratory premises to concentrate and learn to make programming...
it was a time consuming activty... actually im done except for the last number... wahahahaha some of my classmates asking me what to do.. so i taught them with all the knowledge i can share... wahehe... yes time is over and i get a score 20/25 not bad...
(thesis approve but not really) after my class my groupmates for the thesis ask me where i am and where gonna go to the company we choose to make a thesis... after we meet up, we decided to go to the company and gave the letter of intent to them so that they can tell to us if it is approve or not... upon giving the letter (ow btw a lady receieves the letter telling us that the branch manager is quite busy and he's not in the company premises) one of my groupmate invite us to have a lunch at the nearest fastfood chain which is JOLLIBEE..... so we decided to walk and go there....
(wifi addict & review) after arriving at jollibee... we get the niciest table... and order some of the establishment offers.. waheheheh as luch i choice K1 (1 pc burger steak) and the my mates choose C1 (1 pc chicken joy).... after eating we clean the table and start to open our laptop... (actually me and 1 of my mates had a laptop) then i start reading the slide presentation i copied on my mate... cause we will have a exam at 1pm... it was 1130 in the morning that we start reading the slide presentation that our teacher used to discuss the lecture last week...
i always look at wifi spots near any stablishment that where i was... sadly being a person who owns a laptop there's no any wifi signal in that stablishment... damn i hate it.. i was not able to post a blog at my blog... and even check my friendster account... huhuhu... i need a internet connection... huhuhu!!!!
(seminar) after eating at jollibee.... we decided to go to school by just walking it... and then we arrive early... hehehe... and waiting to our teacher, so that we could start the class which is like a seminar because of the long discussion, can you imagine a lecture class that has a 4-5 hours time... whoaw it boring right?.. after entering the room our teacher instructs us to get a 1/4 piece of paper and number it from 1 to 10... WTF its just only 10 items and the lecture is in two topics... wahahhaa what an exam.... luckily i got a score 9/10... wahahha very very lucky guy.... after that the seminar starts... heheheheh after a long discussion and my sit mate is challenging me a race in a game which network via wifi, so i agree with him... because the lecture is too boring... while were conducting a race in NFS Mostwanted... we always check our teacher so that we will not be caught playing while he's teaching.... hehehehe taking risk even we know its wrong thing to do... and then suddenly the lecture stops.. and it was finished... yes it only 3pm and we have time to play more... wahahhaha!!! so we decided to play until 4pm.... i always lost at my classmate wahehhe its ok im enjoying it.. whew.. what a race...
(when good things turns bad) having a great friday... im really happy... although i really miss someone... yup you know who... its carla... anyways having my friends timothy around the mall (we've decided to go the mall because its friday and my friend is waiting for his girlfried) i play the arcade game which i always play wahehhe TEKKEN addict... but suddenly everythings turns out not right... its 6pm, unexpected scenery... while standing and talking to a friend at the mall... i've seen her... im on panic seeing her... and suddenly she pass in front of me... but i noticed something.. she made a pause.. in front me i think she is thinking will she go back or proceed walking.... damn it's ok to me if only she's alone or with her girl friends... but i notice a guy.. yup a guy following her wearing their school uniform... damn my feeling got crushed... and im jealous of what i see... having the disturb feeling... i decided to play the game and yet i lost... damn im not feeling great... i told my friend im leaving... while walking around the mall to go out... i suddenly open my phone and get RUBY (the razor that i kept for 5 weeks that i always use when i make cuts/slashes) damn me with no more thinking... i cut my self.. deep cuts... making lots of blood pouring in my wrist.... i looked for her... to show what i've done to my self... but i cant find her... i decided to go out of the mall have a walk until i see my self in front of the coffee hub....
here's the deep cut although its on my previous blog i just want to post it again!!!!
(depress, coffee, wifi, and chatters) i decided to go enter the coffee hub.. although im not into drinking coffee... i just got one because im not feeling great and the establishment has a wifi connection, so i can post a blog regarding matters that i was hurt again.... after opening my laptop my brother message me and telling me that i got a new cut and he's worried about the keloids that will be the output of the cuts.. i just told him that i know what i was doing, and please just understand me... some of my friends message me... and try to comfort me... and even watch my mood via webcam... even my brothers girlfriend is concern at me... i know im not like this before but i suddenly changed just because i cant accept the fact the we're through damn me.... i love her so much im taking such risk just to have her again... even the payment for this is my own life...
having the time spent in chatting and dinking coffee, i've received an sms message from her using her moms number... and saying how am i???... damn my reaction to the question.. got into my nerves.. i just told her im not ok.... im really not... does she knows that she is the reason why im not ok??? how can she dont even noticed that... i cant believed it... damn.. im really hurt... im dipress.. i nid some to talk to... i cant cry... i cant....... im just taking advantage of the time coffee and even the chatters that chats with me so that i can still be ok... damn i really hate what happened.... huhuhuhuhuhuhu!!!!
(skipping up the rest of the story...... i dont wanna to talk more..... i cant tell it anymore....)
friday i felt like i was crusified...
im all alone...
i cry deep inside...
i love her so...
i wish i could be somebody else....
THANKS for reading!!!
rekkusu
THURSDAY a pleasing day!!!
weeeew!!! it was thursday, the day with a long time spent school.... many things the will be happen, hope it will be great!!! lets start now!!!
(morning delight) i woke up around 8am.... of course i have first go to the nearest comfort room to pee.. heheheh... it was my morning routine.... after upon peeing i decided to have a rest and watch my niece plays while he is watching tv.. hehehe he is so cute and cudly.... while watching sometimes i do things that will irritate him... heheheh i always do that.... so that our house will be noisy with all the screaming of that child..... wahahaha... (although his parents will be mad at him)...
after that i decided to take a bath cause i would like to go to school early, so i can make my work station routine.... wahehehe..... and then after my preparation going to school i made it early around 845am wahaha to quite early for a class at 10am..... weeeeee.....
(work station) after a long walk (not really a long walk) i've connected this laptop to the network cable so i can do things that considerably schedule....(routine again).... after my laptop boots... a friend of mine which actually invited me yesterday (wednesday) to have a drink PMed me on my YM... and he is asking me i was'nt avle to go the place where we will have a drink..... a long conversation happened.... actually its not my fault.... :(...
having ready before i go to class i noticed that some of the desktop computers at the work station are not functioning, i decide to make a quick maintenance so that my job at the work station will functioned.... whew... damn its almost 10am.. im gonna be late.... so i decide to leave the machines and then proceed to class.....
(a MASTER) whew i'm in a hurry.... to not got late at the first subject.... after noticing that my class are not in the area of our room..... (outside the room).... WAAAAA i am late... heheh.. i just take a peek so i can see who's inside the room and then i entered.....
after seeing my instructor telling something and explaining it... i took a chair and listen although im not interested of what he say i focus.... wahahha what can i do.. i have to listen... hehehehe... our instructor explains the new grading system he is proposing so that the majority of our class will getting a passed grade in him... waheheh.. he is too kind yet the requirements for the subject is really hard... wahahha!!!! after his explanation and etc is finished he gave us a problem that we will had as an activity... and while im doing this.. damn i forgot the scripting language i'll be using to this.. it almost a year since that programming language.. wahehhe.. i have to as a classmate so i can follow at the activity... wahahha... and then POOF hehe im done with the activity.... oh btw or instructor said that after who is done with the activity can go out and take the rest of time a break.... wheeeew.. so lucky....
(lunch at the neighbor) after waiting for my classmate to finish the activity that our instructor gave.... whew it was lunch and we have to walk to go the eatery where they always eat their lunch... it was at ate vangie's canteen our neighbor... heheheh... i decided to eat my lunch there so that i dont have to do more cooking just to feed my self... time cinsuming and it was only 30 bucks for a good lunch.... although i'm not a bit hungry (im on my diet) i have to eat something i dont even eat a breakfast that morning... whew.. what a great lunch.. im full... after that we decided to leave the eatery and have our time spent on what we will do....
(the long wait) after our vacant pass out.. it was 3 in the afternoon my classmates has their own class... and so do i... we look for our instructress whew... after the long wait some of the faculty told us that there was a meeting held between the new teachers last year and in the present year... the long wait has ended knowing that the next subject will be at 6 in the evening.. wahahaha!!! were lucky.... wahahah!!! ive spent my time playing games at my laptop.... oh btw... the former set of the student council which i am also an officer, and auditor to be exact... conducts a meeting held by the former governor... regarding some matters that was not really great to hear... but then our great governor explains us what to do.. for some students that will question us about the things happened and for the WHY questions..... and then after that my gaming time proceeds.... until we've seen that the meeting ended.. we have a class at 6pm...
(EMOREXIA) hahahahaha after the long break many of our classmates go to the nearest restaurant where they can have a drink... (i think it was a small drink)... but they decided to return school and attend the last class that the day had... our teacher noticed that they were all drunk although they were not... but school policies says that no student should be allow in the class which in the presence of any alcoholic beverages... i think that is in the student manual..... but out teacher gave them a second chance.... after that... things suddenly changes and our classmates have to do what they want to do... although the subject concentrate about our thesis.... but our teacher noticed the keloids in my left arm... and then i open up the story behind... after she knows why... he start calling me names... at first ANOREXIA but when time pass it leads to the name EMOREXIA... wahaha actually i like it... EMOREXIA... meaning.... the status of a person named rex (which is me) who is in deep pain and has nothing to do but to hurt him self by making cuts/slashes so that he can surpass the pain in his heart delt by a girl that he truly loves... hehehe silly me to think of this definition.... after that whew.. the time pass till 9pm... class is finished i have to go home... i have a class at 7am tomorow...
(aircon gone mad) after the checking of attendance we shutdown the desktop units and the battery backups... i decided to shut the aircon... after shutting it.. while im going to the circuit braker to close the electricity of the entire room.... the aircon runs again.. whoaw... what a creepy thing... but then i have no choice but to close it again and close the entire room.... wahehehehe...
(chopstick) after getting home late... around 930 at our wallclock... i ask my mom whats menu for the dinner.. it was a noodle dish.. so decided to eat the noodle dish and have a piece of chicken that i chop into two... and a can of SMBL... wahehhe (see the picture ofr clarification) its just take me minutes i think not more than 5 minutes i've finish it... hmmm im full.... i have to clean the dishes i used.. and prepare my things so i can take the whole night resting.....
goodnight rekkusu....
a fine day right!!!!
hope you have a better day tomorrow....
THANKS for reading!!!
sayonara
(morning delight) i woke up around 8am.... of course i have first go to the nearest comfort room to pee.. heheheh... it was my morning routine.... after upon peeing i decided to have a rest and watch my niece plays while he is watching tv.. hehehe he is so cute and cudly.... while watching sometimes i do things that will irritate him... heheheh i always do that.... so that our house will be noisy with all the screaming of that child..... wahahaha... (although his parents will be mad at him)...
after that i decided to take a bath cause i would like to go to school early, so i can make my work station routine.... wahehehe..... and then after my preparation going to school i made it early around 845am wahaha to quite early for a class at 10am..... weeeeee.....
(work station) after a long walk (not really a long walk) i've connected this laptop to the network cable so i can do things that considerably schedule....(routine again).... after my laptop boots... a friend of mine which actually invited me yesterday (wednesday) to have a drink PMed me on my YM... and he is asking me i was'nt avle to go the place where we will have a drink..... a long conversation happened.... actually its not my fault.... :(...
having ready before i go to class i noticed that some of the desktop computers at the work station are not functioning, i decide to make a quick maintenance so that my job at the work station will functioned.... whew... damn its almost 10am.. im gonna be late.... so i decide to leave the machines and then proceed to class.....
(a MASTER) whew i'm in a hurry.... to not got late at the first subject.... after noticing that my class are not in the area of our room..... (outside the room).... WAAAAA i am late... heheh.. i just take a peek so i can see who's inside the room and then i entered.....
after seeing my instructor telling something and explaining it... i took a chair and listen although im not interested of what he say i focus.... wahahha what can i do.. i have to listen... hehehehe... our instructor explains the new grading system he is proposing so that the majority of our class will getting a passed grade in him... waheheh.. he is too kind yet the requirements for the subject is really hard... wahahha!!!! after his explanation and etc is finished he gave us a problem that we will had as an activity... and while im doing this.. damn i forgot the scripting language i'll be using to this.. it almost a year since that programming language.. wahehhe.. i have to as a classmate so i can follow at the activity... wahahha... and then POOF hehe im done with the activity.... oh btw or instructor said that after who is done with the activity can go out and take the rest of time a break.... wheeeew.. so lucky....
(lunch at the neighbor) after waiting for my classmate to finish the activity that our instructor gave.... whew it was lunch and we have to walk to go the eatery where they always eat their lunch... it was at ate vangie's canteen our neighbor... heheheh... i decided to eat my lunch there so that i dont have to do more cooking just to feed my self... time cinsuming and it was only 30 bucks for a good lunch.... although i'm not a bit hungry (im on my diet) i have to eat something i dont even eat a breakfast that morning... whew.. what a great lunch.. im full... after that we decided to leave the eatery and have our time spent on what we will do....
(the long wait) after our vacant pass out.. it was 3 in the afternoon my classmates has their own class... and so do i... we look for our instructress whew... after the long wait some of the faculty told us that there was a meeting held between the new teachers last year and in the present year... the long wait has ended knowing that the next subject will be at 6 in the evening.. wahahaha!!! were lucky.... wahahah!!! ive spent my time playing games at my laptop.... oh btw... the former set of the student council which i am also an officer, and auditor to be exact... conducts a meeting held by the former governor... regarding some matters that was not really great to hear... but then our great governor explains us what to do.. for some students that will question us about the things happened and for the WHY questions..... and then after that my gaming time proceeds.... until we've seen that the meeting ended.. we have a class at 6pm...
(EMOREXIA) hahahahaha after the long break many of our classmates go to the nearest restaurant where they can have a drink... (i think it was a small drink)... but they decided to return school and attend the last class that the day had... our teacher noticed that they were all drunk although they were not... but school policies says that no student should be allow in the class which in the presence of any alcoholic beverages... i think that is in the student manual..... but out teacher gave them a second chance.... after that... things suddenly changes and our classmates have to do what they want to do... although the subject concentrate about our thesis.... but our teacher noticed the keloids in my left arm... and then i open up the story behind... after she knows why... he start calling me names... at first ANOREXIA but when time pass it leads to the name EMOREXIA... wahaha actually i like it... EMOREXIA... meaning.... the status of a person named rex (which is me) who is in deep pain and has nothing to do but to hurt him self by making cuts/slashes so that he can surpass the pain in his heart delt by a girl that he truly loves... hehehe silly me to think of this definition.... after that whew.. the time pass till 9pm... class is finished i have to go home... i have a class at 7am tomorow...
(aircon gone mad) after the checking of attendance we shutdown the desktop units and the battery backups... i decided to shut the aircon... after shutting it.. while im going to the circuit braker to close the electricity of the entire room.... the aircon runs again.. whoaw... what a creepy thing... but then i have no choice but to close it again and close the entire room.... wahehehehe...
(chopstick) after getting home late... around 930 at our wallclock... i ask my mom whats menu for the dinner.. it was a noodle dish.. so decided to eat the noodle dish and have a piece of chicken that i chop into two... and a can of SMBL... wahehhe (see the picture ofr clarification) its just take me minutes i think not more than 5 minutes i've finish it... hmmm im full.... i have to clean the dishes i used.. and prepare my things so i can take the whole night resting.....
goodnight rekkusu....
a fine day right!!!!
hope you have a better day tomorrow....
THANKS for reading!!!
sayonara
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