BUSY to those things!!!

wheeeeeeew!!! blogging time.... sorry for not updating my blog, i've been busy in things that would make feel so delighted... heheheheh.... anyways time passes by and im happy of what i am right now... wheeew!!!... for the long time i've been in my other side i realized now im a new person... hahahah

after all i noticed that its august and still my thesis proposal is still not quite approved and i even looked for more company that will be our topic for the system that we are proposing... damn me... i didn't even manage my time in this.... hahahah... its examination week and i have to take more things seriously.... what a week.... and then i have still to find the better company that will suite my system proposal for my thesis.... huhuhuhu..... i have only 7 weeks left to gain a atleast 50% of my system... huhuhu!!! i hope everything will be fine even if things get more complicated...

signing off....

THANKS for reading!!!

rekkusu!!!

Happy I Realize.....

having thoughts of whats going on my life... and being locked and confused... and the fear of letting her go... i am now ready.... its a choice that i made.... i made this so that the both of us will be ok... its hard on my side.... but still i can do this... i maybe still in love with her but i have to move on...

rekkusu let her go.!!!!

yes it was been 6 weeks and now im ready... i dunno what changed my mind... its not all the message she said to me... but my other side telling me that its ok she not your lost anymore... maybe i've been the person that i was not used to be....

wheeeeewwww..!!! alcohol and cuts help me realize this... in fact i have to visit a clinic in the city to check out my keloids and cuts... the doctor was suprise... and she said something that makes smile the whole day round.... wahehehe although i have to skip class so i can go to that clinic...

many positive things got into me... making the feeling of being set free from where i locked my self... as always its been brutal to me that i have to cut my self and drink lots and lots of alcohol...
hahaha... (although i like it more and more) wheeeeeewwwww!!!!

things fastly change... im now ready... i will let her go... i'll just say SORRY.... perhaps this maybe awkward but still the feeling of making things more positively right will be just fine...

sorry i've been like an idiot to punish my self and take all this pain by my self, although my friends keeps helping me realize that it is not right anymore.... lucky i have them everytime....

if you can read this message i hope you understand....... here's a message for you CARLA!!!

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im sorry that at this time im still in loved with you.....
im sorry i cant accept the fact that i will loose you....
but still i have to do, even i dont like it....
maybe time will tell.... if you and i will cross roads again....
and still i have my feelings for you... would mine if i made a mistake again for loving you????
or maybe you will not accept it anymore.... because of knowing how desperate i was to have you... just let now.... and i will just accept your decision... i will understand.... thanks for letting me love you... i wish you find your man.... and ill try to find my woman..... thanks for everything... and your mom.... take good care of her... she's been there for me everytime i felt alone.. she spared her time just to make me peel comfortable... im very to lucky to meet her... and im very thankful knowing her.... thanks for the time and moments you shared with me.... wishing you all the happiness in your life.... take good care of your self.... i still love you.....

thanks......

BTW IM SORRY..... GOMENASAI KAARA!!!! GOMENASAI

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am i stupid or what... what can i say i just want to let her know... now im happy knowing what to do... i'll just let time decide what will happen next...


rekkusu you find youre self again....
im happy for you....

THANKS for reading ^_^

rekkusu