(lucky SMS) i set the alarm of my phone around 5am last night..... but suddenly im awake around 458 in the morning damn 2 minutes early that the alarm... wahahha... i shuts the alarm and take more rest... i feel still sleepy... till the clock ticks 6am im again awake... but the feeling of being sleepy is still in me so i decided to sleep again until it was 7am... damn i open my eyes and i see it was 7 i'll gonna be late for the early morning class... as a morning habit i always check my phone for the sms messages i've receive by the time i was sleeping... my class mate message me that our class will start 830am... whoaw.. i'm on the rush but after reading the message... whew its ok... i nid to relax now..... until it was 8 and i prepare to do things before going school....
(console programming) after the walk going to the school.. i directly go the classroom where our class held... the first batch of the class where too busy doing the activity given by our teacher.. hehehe... luckily im on second batch and i was'nt late... wahehehe... and after the time ticks till its our turn to start the activity.. i always used my laptop in any of my subject so that some of my classmates can used the laboratory premises to concentrate and learn to make programming...
it was a time consuming activty... actually im done except for the last number... wahahahaha some of my classmates asking me what to do.. so i taught them with all the knowledge i can share... wahehe... yes time is over and i get a score 20/25 not bad...
(thesis approve but not really) after my class my groupmates for the thesis ask me where i am and where gonna go to the company we choose to make a thesis... after we meet up, we decided to go to the company and gave the letter of intent to them so that they can tell to us if it is approve or not... upon giving the letter (ow btw a lady receieves the letter telling us that the branch manager is quite busy and he's not in the company premises) one of my groupmate invite us to have a lunch at the nearest fastfood chain which is JOLLIBEE..... so we decided to walk and go there....
(wifi addict & review) after arriving at jollibee... we get the niciest table... and order some of the establishment offers.. waheheheh as luch i choice K1 (1 pc burger steak) and the my mates choose C1 (1 pc chicken joy).... after eating we clean the table and start to open our laptop... (actually me and 1 of my mates had a laptop) then i start reading the slide presentation i copied on my mate... cause we will have a exam at 1pm... it was 1130 in the morning that we start reading the slide presentation that our teacher used to discuss the lecture last week...
i always look at wifi spots near any stablishment that where i was... sadly being a person who owns a laptop there's no any wifi signal in that stablishment... damn i hate it.. i was not able to post a blog at my blog... and even check my friendster account... huhuhu... i need a internet connection... huhuhu!!!!
(seminar) after eating at jollibee.... we decided to go to school by just walking it... and then we arrive early... hehehe... and waiting to our teacher, so that we could start the class which is like a seminar because of the long discussion, can you imagine a lecture class that has a 4-5 hours time... whoaw it boring right?.. after entering the room our teacher instructs us to get a 1/4 piece of paper and number it from 1 to 10... WTF its just only 10 items and the lecture is in two topics... wahahhaa what an exam.... luckily i got a score 9/10... wahahha very very lucky guy.... after that the seminar starts... heheheheh after a long discussion and my sit mate is challenging me a race in a game which network via wifi, so i agree with him... because the lecture is too boring... while were conducting a race in NFS Mostwanted... we always check our teacher so that we will not be caught playing while he's teaching.... hehehehe taking risk even we know its wrong thing to do... and then suddenly the lecture stops.. and it was finished... yes it only 3pm and we have time to play more... wahahhaha!!! so we decided to play until 4pm.... i always lost at my classmate wahehhe its ok im enjoying it.. whew.. what a race...
(when good things turns bad) having a great friday... im really happy... although i really miss someone... yup you know who... its carla... anyways having my friends timothy around the mall (we've decided to go the mall because its friday and my friend is waiting for his girlfried) i play the arcade game which i always play wahehhe TEKKEN addict... but suddenly everythings turns out not right... its 6pm, unexpected scenery... while standing and talking to a friend at the mall... i've seen her... im on panic seeing her... and suddenly she pass in front of me... but i noticed something.. she made a pause.. in front me i think she is thinking will she go back or proceed walking.... damn it's ok to me if only she's alone or with her girl friends... but i notice a guy.. yup a guy following her wearing their school uniform... damn my feeling got crushed... and im jealous of what i see... having the disturb feeling... i decided to play the game and yet i lost... damn im not feeling great... i told my friend im leaving... while walking around the mall to go out... i suddenly open my phone and get RUBY (the razor that i kept for 5 weeks that i always use when i make cuts/slashes) damn me with no more thinking... i cut my self.. deep cuts... making lots of blood pouring in my wrist.... i looked for her... to show what i've done to my self... but i cant find her... i decided to go out of the mall have a walk until i see my self in front of the coffee hub....
here's the deep cut although its on my previous blog i just want to post it again!!!!
(depress, coffee, wifi, and chatters) i decided to go enter the coffee hub.. although im not into drinking coffee... i just got one because im not feeling great and the establishment has a wifi connection, so i can post a blog regarding matters that i was hurt again.... after opening my laptop my brother message me and telling me that i got a new cut and he's worried about the keloids that will be the output of the cuts.. i just told him that i know what i was doing, and please just understand me... some of my friends message me... and try to comfort me... and even watch my mood via webcam... even my brothers girlfriend is concern at me... i know im not like this before but i suddenly changed just because i cant accept the fact the we're through damn me.... i love her so much im taking such risk just to have her again... even the payment for this is my own life...
having the time spent in chatting and dinking coffee, i've received an sms message from her using her moms number... and saying how am i???... damn my reaction to the question.. got into my nerves.. i just told her im not ok.... im really not... does she knows that she is the reason why im not ok??? how can she dont even noticed that... i cant believed it... damn.. im really hurt... im dipress.. i nid some to talk to... i cant cry... i cant....... im just taking advantage of the time coffee and even the chatters that chats with me so that i can still be ok... damn i really hate what happened.... huhuhuhuhuhuhu!!!!
(skipping up the rest of the story...... i dont wanna to talk more..... i cant tell it anymore....)
friday i felt like i was crusified...
im all alone...
i cry deep inside...
i love her so...
i wish i could be somebody else....
THANKS for reading!!!
rekkusu
(console programming) after the walk going to the school.. i directly go the classroom where our class held... the first batch of the class where too busy doing the activity given by our teacher.. hehehe... luckily im on second batch and i was'nt late... wahehehe... and after the time ticks till its our turn to start the activity.. i always used my laptop in any of my subject so that some of my classmates can used the laboratory premises to concentrate and learn to make programming...
it was a time consuming activty... actually im done except for the last number... wahahahaha some of my classmates asking me what to do.. so i taught them with all the knowledge i can share... wahehe... yes time is over and i get a score 20/25 not bad...
(thesis approve but not really) after my class my groupmates for the thesis ask me where i am and where gonna go to the company we choose to make a thesis... after we meet up, we decided to go to the company and gave the letter of intent to them so that they can tell to us if it is approve or not... upon giving the letter (ow btw a lady receieves the letter telling us that the branch manager is quite busy and he's not in the company premises) one of my groupmate invite us to have a lunch at the nearest fastfood chain which is JOLLIBEE..... so we decided to walk and go there....
(wifi addict & review) after arriving at jollibee... we get the niciest table... and order some of the establishment offers.. waheheheh as luch i choice K1 (1 pc burger steak) and the my mates choose C1 (1 pc chicken joy).... after eating we clean the table and start to open our laptop... (actually me and 1 of my mates had a laptop) then i start reading the slide presentation i copied on my mate... cause we will have a exam at 1pm... it was 1130 in the morning that we start reading the slide presentation that our teacher used to discuss the lecture last week...
i always look at wifi spots near any stablishment that where i was... sadly being a person who owns a laptop there's no any wifi signal in that stablishment... damn i hate it.. i was not able to post a blog at my blog... and even check my friendster account... huhuhu... i need a internet connection... huhuhu!!!!
(seminar) after eating at jollibee.... we decided to go to school by just walking it... and then we arrive early... hehehe... and waiting to our teacher, so that we could start the class which is like a seminar because of the long discussion, can you imagine a lecture class that has a 4-5 hours time... whoaw it boring right?.. after entering the room our teacher instructs us to get a 1/4 piece of paper and number it from 1 to 10... WTF its just only 10 items and the lecture is in two topics... wahahhaa what an exam.... luckily i got a score 9/10... wahahha very very lucky guy.... after that the seminar starts... heheheheh after a long discussion and my sit mate is challenging me a race in a game which network via wifi, so i agree with him... because the lecture is too boring... while were conducting a race in NFS Mostwanted... we always check our teacher so that we will not be caught playing while he's teaching.... hehehehe taking risk even we know its wrong thing to do... and then suddenly the lecture stops.. and it was finished... yes it only 3pm and we have time to play more... wahahhaha!!! so we decided to play until 4pm.... i always lost at my classmate wahehhe its ok im enjoying it.. whew.. what a race...
(when good things turns bad) having a great friday... im really happy... although i really miss someone... yup you know who... its carla... anyways having my friends timothy around the mall (we've decided to go the mall because its friday and my friend is waiting for his girlfried) i play the arcade game which i always play wahehhe TEKKEN addict... but suddenly everythings turns out not right... its 6pm, unexpected scenery... while standing and talking to a friend at the mall... i've seen her... im on panic seeing her... and suddenly she pass in front of me... but i noticed something.. she made a pause.. in front me i think she is thinking will she go back or proceed walking.... damn it's ok to me if only she's alone or with her girl friends... but i notice a guy.. yup a guy following her wearing their school uniform... damn my feeling got crushed... and im jealous of what i see... having the disturb feeling... i decided to play the game and yet i lost... damn im not feeling great... i told my friend im leaving... while walking around the mall to go out... i suddenly open my phone and get RUBY (the razor that i kept for 5 weeks that i always use when i make cuts/slashes) damn me with no more thinking... i cut my self.. deep cuts... making lots of blood pouring in my wrist.... i looked for her... to show what i've done to my self... but i cant find her... i decided to go out of the mall have a walk until i see my self in front of the coffee hub....
here's the deep cut although its on my previous blog i just want to post it again!!!!
(depress, coffee, wifi, and chatters) i decided to go enter the coffee hub.. although im not into drinking coffee... i just got one because im not feeling great and the establishment has a wifi connection, so i can post a blog regarding matters that i was hurt again.... after opening my laptop my brother message me and telling me that i got a new cut and he's worried about the keloids that will be the output of the cuts.. i just told him that i know what i was doing, and please just understand me... some of my friends message me... and try to comfort me... and even watch my mood via webcam... even my brothers girlfriend is concern at me... i know im not like this before but i suddenly changed just because i cant accept the fact the we're through damn me.... i love her so much im taking such risk just to have her again... even the payment for this is my own life...
having the time spent in chatting and dinking coffee, i've received an sms message from her using her moms number... and saying how am i???... damn my reaction to the question.. got into my nerves.. i just told her im not ok.... im really not... does she knows that she is the reason why im not ok??? how can she dont even noticed that... i cant believed it... damn.. im really hurt... im dipress.. i nid some to talk to... i cant cry... i cant....... im just taking advantage of the time coffee and even the chatters that chats with me so that i can still be ok... damn i really hate what happened.... huhuhuhuhuhuhu!!!!
(skipping up the rest of the story...... i dont wanna to talk more..... i cant tell it anymore....)
friday i felt like i was crusified...
im all alone...
i cry deep inside...
i love her so...
i wish i could be somebody else....
THANKS for reading!!!
rekkusu
